Finally got my appointment through for Miscarriage clinic , 15th October. I’m happy that I’ve finally got an appointment because I know there is up to a 6-8 week wait to get the results back. I’m anxious in case they find something wrong and anxious that I might not be able to try my 3rd attempt of IVF before Christmas which is the goal I have set. But I know that it is good that I have the opportunity to go to this clinic to find out if there is anything abnormal.
It has been 2 months since I miscarried, at the beginning of this week I was really down not knowing why at this point and then one morning I just broke down crying in front of my husband to a point where I could not breathe, and it finally all came out, that I have been blaming myself for the miscarriage, that I must of done something wrong. I found myself apologizing to my husband that the baby didn’t want to stay inside me, that I must have done something wrong and I am sorry that I am costing us money to have a baby because I’m the reason we can’t conceive naturally. After all this was shared I felt a lot better and realized I must have had all this emotion built inside me keeping it to myself and it is finally all out. My husband and I have now came out of this stronger and we know it will happen one day, we just need to be patient, which is difficult to do, especially when there is friends around me having babies and trying to get pregnant. I think what males don’t realize sometimes is that the female also goes through the physical emotions as well, we put our bodies through so much trying to get pregnant and so much if it doesn’t work (medical miscarriage). Staying strong, so first step is the appointment next week xx