Hoping

[sam84]

Period jue today still no sign but testing negative I'm sure it will come but I am praying it doesn't 5 months now since hsg test 😕

[Little3535]

Fingers crossed for you xx

[sam84 in reply to Little3535]

I've done two tests and both negative so I think it's just a little late 😢😢

[Little3535 in reply to sam84]

Stay positive beautiful xx

[sam84 in reply to Little3535]

I'm trying it's so hard sometimes this week is so hard I really would love some good news it's a year on sat since I had my ectopic and had my other tube operated on finding it a little difficult this week xx

[Kernishp]

There's something in the air at the moment- I'm finding this week tough going too. I think it's all the Royal Baby stuff that's making it worse- not that new Princess' arrival is a bad thing though!

[Hidden]

Sam84 I'll keep my fingers crossed for you that you're pregnant I know how tough this. Every month it's such a kick in the face. Have you got a treatment plan lined up? Sometimes having a plan can ease the pressure a bit,obviously you will prefer to conceive naturally like us all here wish we won't having to fight so hard for something most people take for granted but think how wonderful it will be when it does happen. Thinking of you hope you get your answers soon X

[Little3535]

Your right I think with babies all over the telly this week it's hard to stay positive when we all want it so badly xx the princess being born is wonderful news but still hard to be happy right ??

I'm hoping your pregnant honey xx are you trying naturally or are you getting help xx

[sam84]

Thanks guys it is difficult but ill get there I always do, I haven't set up another plan yet I've had icsi in the past it then had my tubes operated on had an ectopic last may then and hsg test in feb to see if the other tube was open after the surgery and dye went thru I'm now waiting to see my consultant in June to see what he thinks I should do just in the mean time trying naturally until I see him just wish it would happen so many of my friends pregnant atm and while I'm happy for them I can't help but wish it was me x

[sam84]

Period came today feel so deflated think I g the hsg test hasn't worked for us can't wait to see my consultant in June and make plans for treatment was so hoping after years of trying and treatment this tubular surgery had worked and I'd be able to concive naturally but I'm now thinking it's going to be back to treatment x

[Hidden in reply to sam84]

Oh sam84 I'm really sorry to hear that. Big hugs to you. This journey can be so hard. Still June is not far away and getting a treatment plan will feel like a positive step forwards. A step closer to your baby. Hang on in there hunni you're nearly there. Hope you feel better soon take care X

[sam84 in reply to Hidden]

Aaaaarrrrrgggghhh that's how I feel atm just want to scream!!! I really thot after the hsg test and having the tubular surgery there would be a chance and of course I had Google the life out of it reading all these wonderful things why do we never read the bad!! I just want my app with my consultant to come now so I can sort out the next step for us and with the right clinic so emotional today and not coping very well atm but I know that's cause it's coming up to a year since I had an ectopic pregnancy I'm just so all over the place I wanna hide away from the world, sorry for the vent I just can't be this upset around family and friends they just don't understand xxx

[Hidden in reply to sam84]

Sam84 I know that feeling so well. I just wanna be on my own with a bottle of wine and a bar of chocolate! There's nothing wrong with having hope it's how all of us get by. It's such a huge disapointment that friends and family don't get it they just wanna make you feel ok which is impossible sometimes you aren't ok and people need to acknowledge this is a s**t situation to be in thank god for this site!!! Please don't apologize I've said far worse lol ! The waiting around is truly the worst part... I've spent many times wishing my life away. You just want to get from one appointment to another and hope to make progress. I'm the same. I had to cancel my ivf in march which was really tough due to a discovery that I've got a submuscol fibroid and a cyst on my right ovary. I'm now waiting to see a general gynae 18th may and I'm counting the days down lol! Causing me irregular bleeding/intense period cramping between periods very very heavy painful periods and maybe my fertility too...I've put trying on hold till this is sorted out as there is a link between submucus fibroids and miscarriages after nearly 4 years of ttc I don't know why I'm worrying why I'd suddenly just fall now I don't n Having this time out has done us both the world of good. Don't get me wrong I'm still thinking about babies but not getting the extra upset of the dreaded af arriving.It's been lovely not worrying when my period turns up Maybe give yourselves the month off and just enjoy each other's company by taking the pressure off. I don't Hun it's just so hard sometimes.

Hope you are feeling

better. Good luck with your appointment in June hope time goes quickly! Let the countdown commence!!! I'm

Sure our babies will be worth the wait.big hugs X

[sam84 in reply to Hidden]

Aww that's pants for you two but it was all because of a cyst that my consultant found that my tubes could be operated on giving me this chance to concive naturally u never know what they will do if u need an operation! Awk my family and friends mean well and I know that but sometimes I want to scream in my friends faces NO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU HAVE ALL THE KIDS YOU WANT AND HAD NO PROBLEM GETTING THEM!!! then I catch myself on lol 😂 I'm feeling good bit better today sat in a wee ball this morning and cried my eyes out till there were no more tears and then picked myself up and im moving on going to just relax and have a break till June and I see my consultant then ill make a dicision on what I'm going to do next 😊 your right thank god for this site everyone here knows how we feel and I love that I hope you get sorted soon and can continue your journey baby dust coming your way I'll keep you in my prayers xxx

[hopeforICSI]

Hi Sam84, thinking of you x sending hugs xx I am in similar emotional phase like you for family and friend mostly don't understand the circumstances we go through during ivf/ICSI. I find hiding the best option for me xx

[sam84 in reply to hopeforICSI]

I used to hide it it done me no good so now I'm so open to the point where my friends and family think I'm mad I don't hide it from anyone I've even got to the stage if someone says aww do you not have kids I just answer them with no I can't have kids maybe it's a we bitter thing in me but does my head in that people just assume that you should have kids cause your at a sertain age 😊 this site is amazing tho it does me good to know im not alone xxx