Hi everyone, I'm scheduled to have a laparoscopy on 7th February as I've been having intermittent pelvic pain, most of the time mild but occasionally sharp and throbbing. I've had tests and an ultrasound that haven't shown anything, so the gynaecologists I've seen think I have endometriosis.
I am quite anxious. I keep flitting between thinking everything will be OK - I'm going to a hospital with a specialist endometriosis unit, and the surgeon who will do my laparoscopy is a specialist in doing laparoscopies - to just blind panic. I've had a general anaesthetic before and it was fine, but I was a child then and I don't think I had any conception of what could go wrong. I don't REALLY think I'll die/have serious complications but then surely no one does!? When I get like this I find it really difficult to calm down. I also have a history of fainting at medical procedures, and I'm scared I'll become really panicked or will faint on the day, especially if my partner has to just check me in and leave me. I feel like a child but I really want someone to just make everything be OK
I'm struggling a lot with my emotions at the moment as well because I don't know what they'll find or what the outcome will be for me. I'm only 24 and have always been healthy, and contemplating having a chronic illness that may necessitate further operations or leave me infertile is horrible. I also feel a bit guilty because my symptoms haven't been very extreme, yet I know women often wait years and years before anyone will take them seriously.
Basically I am just struggling right now, and it's ruining the time I have before my laparoscopy because I'm just worrying all the time