I had a very successful appointment with my gynae today, during which she referred me for a diagnostic laparoscopy. After recapping my health over the last year, she did some scans and some checks and came to he conclusion that everything appeared very healthy and normal, but that we shouldn't rule out endometriosis. She also said that if they found nothing, that I wouldn't be re-referred and given the sensitivity of the area around my bowel, that I should probably speak to a gastroentoroligist.
I'm so happy that I appear to have found a lovely, competent doctor with a decent understanding of the disease. My now I feel myself stressing more about not having endo than I do about having it. What if they go in and find nothing? It still leaves me in pain (that is suspiciously linked with my cycle) and with no questions answered.
I'm so fed up. I can't belive I'm that desperate that I'd actually feel easier if they found endo....I'm so ashamed of myself. I just wish I knew what's going on with my body.