Apologies for the long post but I have to get this off my chest! I got diagnosed with pcos at 17 and endo through a lap at 19. I came off my tablets last week as I'm going into hospital on Saturday for a small procedure and since then I've been so emotional I feel myself get angry and then I cry for like hours and I'm getting so annoyed with myself like I can't just stay calm I don't know but tonight i was with a guy and it got somewhere serious and I had to tell him I was going home i was petrified like how is anyone ever going to be in a relationship with me when I can't have sex it's just never ever going to work I know there's more to relationships than sex but I mean it's a pretty big part of it, like I could see how frightened my ex boyfriend was to hurt me so I used to pretend it didn't when I felt like I was being cut with a kitchen knife it's not the same pain as losing your virginity it's like someone is stabbing you, how could i do that to someone else? and I don't know why I'm saying all of this I just had to rant and I don't know who to rant to! I don't know why but I can't stop thinking of everything and to be honest I just feel like rubbish and I know I'm being selfish aswell.