This morning on my way in to work my other half text me to tell me that our newly wed friends are pregnant and had their first scan yesterday - they got married on valentines day this year and have been trying ever since. I have been on the edge of bursting into tears since he told me at 7:30am.
I'm torn between happiness for them and sickness at not knowing my abilities. I've had Endo (successfully treated and removed) and also have Adeno (the gps don't think I'm ovulating either). I had the coil removed last week because of it affecting my moods and I've bled every day since...
On a day to day basis I don't give my fertility any thought, I don't see the point and it genuinely doesn't bother me. However on hearing this news I've had a permanent lump in my throat and a constant sickness feeling in the pitt of my stomach. I know as soon as I go home and hug my partner I'll burst into tears
I'm glad my other half told me, I wouldn't want to be kept in the dark but I wish and wish he'd have thought about it and waited until I was in the comfort of my own home.
What's done is done thought so my question is - how do you ladies handle these situations when you're first told? Once I'm home tonight I'll have my moment and then move on but how do you go about not letting it eat at you for hours on end until you have that release?
My Mam adopted me when she 30 after having a full hysterectomy at 28 through the damage endo had caused (such a small world!). I phoned her and she was very empathic then we discussed the Guide Dogs program that was on last night. It helped for a split second but it just wasn't enough.
Please help. I don't like not being able to control how i feel and deal with things xx