Thank you Penny for sharing your situation with me. I ran a hospital support group for IVF for quite a few years. Sad to say, I was the one left behind without a baby and everyone else has been successful. They've all moved on with their lives now they are parents.
We've just moved 240 miles away to a large house with land so I can try to fill my life with children substitutes such as cats, chickens, gardening and maybe a dog when I have physically recovered from the operation.
We tried adoption after 5 cycles of IVF and lots of frozen embryo cycles. I can honestly say that the adoption process was dreadful. It is almost designed to split up couples. For the sake of our marriage, we had to forego the adoption process.
Everything in my life comes as a poor second choice to being a Mum. It definitely does not fill the void. Work, social life and events all seem shallow. I am a very strong person but childlessness is a particularly cruel hand to be dealt.
You are dead right when you say that other people simply do not understand unless they are wearing the same shoes as you. I am sad that you are in the same position as I am but at least we know that we are not alone.
Big, empathetic hugs and I'love let you know if I ever find a wonderful child substitute.