Feeling really low today...

[MrsPanda]

Hi all,

I usually have good and bad days but the word that really sums up how I feel today is despair and just needed a place to vent (melodramatic, I know). I'm due for a lap 2 weeks today to sort out endo and cysts, and my husband has been diagnosed with low sperm count.

I got my period yesterday in the middle of a work event - sorry if tmi - it was sooo painful and heavy to the point where I thought I was going to pass out. I feel completely wiped today, made worse by the fact that when I went to pick up the forms for my husband's follow up sperm analysis this morning, the new girl behind reception at my GP surgery turned out to be someone I went to school with (and wasn't v nice to me).

The simpering, 'sympathetic' look she gave me when she handed over the forms made me want to smack her in the face, and I just sat and cried when I got back to the car. We've been trying to have a baby for so long and although I know things are progressing, it's just so hard to stay positive sometimes.

My husband is really down about it all, and keeps getting migraines from the stress.

I just don't know what to do.....apologies for the downer and thanks for reading xx

[LadyPenelope]

My heart really goes out to you. I can understand how you feel. I have stage 4 endo with all the issues that come with it. My husband and I tried in vain to have a child.....the frustration, the looks from some hospital staff and subtle pressure from family and friends (to start a family) is enough to wear you down. Ignore that silly girl from the GP surgery, she should know better. You did the right thing by venting on this site....we all do that every now and then, it keeps us sane. I know it's very difficult but please be encouraged and continue staying positive. It will be alright...

[Olinka]

Hi there; Its ok for you to tell ús how you feel.You loosing lot of blood; you feel weak and down.I went through this before; there is always hope.Try to eat vitamin suplements with iron.prenatal tablets are best its gentle for your body.Find friends that will make you smile; laugh.I am infertile after surgeries; thats what surgen says BUT there is always hope.Now your health is most important now; your marriadge to be happy and stable no matter what .And God has the last word with you concieving.There is always hope:-):-)lol Oli