I usually have good and bad days but the word that really sums up how I feel today is despair and just needed a place to vent (melodramatic, I know). I'm due for a lap 2 weeks today to sort out endo and cysts, and my husband has been diagnosed with low sperm count.
I got my period yesterday in the middle of a work event - sorry if tmi - it was sooo painful and heavy to the point where I thought I was going to pass out. I feel completely wiped today, made worse by the fact that when I went to pick up the forms for my husband's follow up sperm analysis this morning, the new girl behind reception at my GP surgery turned out to be someone I went to school with (and wasn't v nice to me).
The simpering, 'sympathetic' look she gave me when she handed over the forms made me want to smack her in the face, and I just sat and cried when I got back to the car. We've been trying to have a baby for so long and although I know things are progressing, it's just so hard to stay positive sometimes.
My husband is really down about it all, and keeps getting migraines from the stress.
I just don't know what to do.....apologies for the downer and thanks for reading xx