I have suffered from depression for on and off for about 20 years and at the moment I feel really low. I have been on antidepressants for over 10 years and I don't know if they are doing any good. If they are working I dread to think how bad I would feel if I weren't on them. since Christmas I have been on a downward spiral, weight rising, sleeping excessively or not enough, the house is a mess and as for finances... Plucked up the nerve to visit GP today but she said after 2 minutes of me talking that it was just the stress I'm going through that is causing my feelings. As I am on powerful antidepressants she wasn't willing to do any thing about it. In the past this particular GP (not my usual one) has told me off for crying during a consultation! I just don't know what to do next. I have no family to talk to and what friends I have don't want to know.
People don't realise how bad I am. I am self-employed and can't afford to take time off so as I work through my lows people say that I can't be that ill. I feel so helpless.