Ive lost everything. I just want to lose myself.

[Charlotte1990]

I wake up in a morning to face the fears and pain of the dark things in my life.

I havent lasted in a job for more than 6 months due to time off for sickness which has been because staying in bed under the covers has been the better option.

I have lost all my jobs through dismissals because of the time off I have had. Now when I felt I was picking up and applied for jobs again...the dismissals haunt me and my CV making employers not want to hire me. I have no money, infact, im living off my overdraft and draining the life out of the bank.

I dont know who to turn to.

The doctor simply says that he will refer me for councelling......i had councelling and it didnt work. I had a violent relationship prior to the one I am in now....i still have nightmares and wake up in tears or screaming. My family dont feel like family and to add more pressure to the situation im adopted and feel like im always pushed aside.

Ive lost everything I ever had...including myself. The only thing that is keeping me alive on this earth is my boyfriend. He is supportive and caring but there is only so much another person can do.

Where do I turn from here?

[miserables]

If I was you I would go back and see your GP and explain how you are feeling. They may advise yo to start anti depressant medication. There are also other forms of therapy you can be referred for such as CBT etc.