I've experienced depression or dysthymia for most of my life. Recently I've had some real breakthroughs. The last three days have been quite tough, though, starting with spending 6 hours travelling, bus connections etc. when the actual maxillofacial hospital appointment took 7 minutes maximum with the Senior House Officer. This set my pain off badly. I also hate and fear snow and ice - snow this morning, and I'm also having to watch my finances. I've found some of the old, unwanted thoughts creeping in.
Part of me thinks that these are just 'normal bad days' triggered by physical and external things, part fears another major depressive setback. Part of me believes the mindfulness saying that thoughts are like clouds drifting across the sky of our minds, which we just let pass, but part is fearful.
Does anyone else who has had long-term depression find it hard to differentiate between the two?