I went home for Easter because my mum insisted that she needed me, I was very uncomfortable to when we spoke on the phone but our Grand father had recently passed away and my mum needed me so I went. My sister and me don't speak due to bitterness, and I literally ended up in the living room on my own whilst the whole family avoided to speak to me. It tore me apart.
I left, and walked to the nearby river where i used to walk the dog (whos about to be put down) I was there for hours crying my little heart out, thinking of doing the worst. No one looked for me, called or text. I came home and everyone was in my sisters flat, even my boyfriend. No one cared.
I broke down when I got in and tried to commit suicide due to everything being too much, mum called the police and I ended up in hospital for the night.
I left the next day to go back to London. I've had no calls from any of my family, or a text to make sure I'm okay.
I feel so so alone, and no matter what I do for someone else, I will always be the bad person. I care so much for every one to create a nourishing relationship but I dont get anything back. I've tried to keep positive by distracting myself with hobbies and future prospects, but whats the point if you basically have no one? Please help