Hello. A few months ago I got diagnosed with Dissociation alongside Anxiety, and recently it's begun escalating worse and worse and Its hit a point where I need help to try and reign it back under control and I need help knowing where to start.
My dissociations contain a mixture of things - blacking out and another persona taking over, being very animalistic and try attacking the closest thing to me, hearing/the feeling of noise in my ears, spacing out and not respending to what's around me, seeing things that aren't there, feeling like everything is slightly off/wrong, shutting down and spasiming, feeling like I'm trapped inside my body and I'm not properly in control, having non epileptic seizures, being concious but not being have to move even when I'm mentally trying to get myself to move.
I'm 17, dropped out of collage last year due to anxiety and non epileptic seizures, never went back into education. Had two suicide attempts between May and June this year. Tried finding work but simular to what happened in collage I kept having seizures and shutting down so basicly in a situation of can't work. Tend to not really leave the house, only person I really see is my Partner outside of my family, I tend to regress back into a younger mindset a lot.
I have a Partner who while cares a lot is very sociopathic so struggles to come with me when I losing proper conscience and not able to function properly. He's also going into the army next year so gonna be going long distance.