Hi, my name is Dave. Just wanting to bounce something off you. Sorry for the life story you're going to read but I need to establish background. I've suffered with depression since the age of 15 and self-harmed at the time so severely I scared myself, and stopped when I was 17, yet I went undiagnosed until 21 without medication as I refused to consult a doctor. I briefly took a medication I can't remember the name of before deciding it wasn't for me for whatever reason and went without medical help again. When I was 25 I attempted suicide and was hospitalised. I was then given citalopram and again stopped taking it without consulting advice. I was then hospitalised again after a psychotic episode when I was 30 after I fell under many delusions I won't go into in detail here as it will take too long. I started taking olanzapine, which I've since stopped taking as I showed some improvement under medical advice for once, and fluoxetine, which I'm still taking. However recently, I've started noticeably shaking when people pass me by in the street, am reluctant to leave the house unless I absolutely have to, am becoming irritable and short tempered, have increased my alcohol intake, have interrupted sleep, am exhausted after work (as I work 12 hours shifts admittedly) more than normal, am seeing movement out of the corner of my eye that isn't actually there, am obsessing about half-overheard conversations, and have decreased appetite. Now, this is possibly the stupidest question ever asked on this forum, but what do I need to do? Would appreciate any advice.