I am really ill atm and I absolutely hate myself, I feel alone , ugly useless can't deal with anything and do myself no favours I have nobody for me, I have to try to be strong for my daughter. that's the only thing I an still here for. I am rock bottom and can't see things getting better. I literally hurt inside. I mess my own head up and don't want to be here I can't deal with it anymore, bi-polar.