I'm a 38 years old woman and I think I suffered all my life from depression/anxiety. I'm married for 5 years with my best friend from 23. My biggest problem is that he don't or don't want to understand me. To be truthfully sometimes I can't understand myself... I had a father that left us (me, my little brother and my mum) when I was 9 years old. He always been very irresponsible regarding to money and sometimes he used to go to the cafes or restaurants and have something to eat or drink and just live without paying for it!!!! I always been aware of the situation and I always condemned him for that! But destiny's irony I became an addicted to shopping since I start to earn my own money. I almost destroyed my life and I was saved by my husband. He just had knowledge about it just a couple of months before we got married, I thought that I was going to be alone for the rest of my life but instead of that he fought for me and helped me the best way he could. Till today I don't have control about almost of the money I earn, it is for the best, I will be always an addicted.
Since I was 18 I take anxiety and depression tables almost everyday, I have better days sometimes but I always feel sad, guilty about my mistakes, crying , anxious, pains everywhere, mostly when I get up, I just can't cope with nothing, and I have very bad moon swings too. I don't know what to do anymore... I went to my GP and she referred me to the mental health clinic and in my first assessment with the mental nurse she looked in to my eyes and told me that I wasn't that bad, gave me an envelope full of leaflets, told me that getting a counsellor was going to take a wild and booked me for another appointment 4 weeks after... I didn't show up. My condition is interfering with my personal life and my job and it's getting worst... I just can't be happy and live my life in peace....