What can I do?

[CookieChan]

Hello. I suffer from really bad depression and anxiety. Recently I've been very stressed and had been considering suicide. My boyfriend has to put up with my panic attack and me 'freaking out'. I get very upset by little things and just tent to be upset all the time. I'm ruining university, I'm ruining my relationship, I'm just ruining everything. How can I make it up to everyone who has to deal with me? I feel like a horrible person. I honestly feel like I shouldn't be here. I find it so hard to do anything. All my motivation has gone, I can barely get out of bed. I just really don't know what to do any more. I've been through years of therapy and counselling, I've been on medication, I have no idea what to do

[Suzie40]

The person you need to make it up to is yourself. You deserve more than feeling so low. And believe it or not, you can feel better. Thinking about suicide is not always a bad thing. It can actually be a helpful emotion. However, it's important that you don't deal with those kind of feelings on your own. How recently have you talked to your doctor about how you're feeling? X

[hamble99b]

please go and talk to your doctor, tell them how you feel.

there are usually counsellors at most uni's too.

Please don't be too hard on yourself. You are not a horrible person - a horrible person wouldn't notice and wouldn't care about any effect on others, and certainly wouldn't reach out on here. You do care.

You have depression and anxiety and that is what is making you feel this way. Please ask for help.

Please come back on soon and talk to us.

regards,

hamble.

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Hello!

The fact you feel the way you do and you are still thinking of other people's feelings as well shows that you are a wonderfully caring person. You've reached out on here and for other help as well which is incredibly brave of you! Keep going back to your GP as long as it takes to get all the support you need. I understand this is far easier said than done, but as much as possible be as open and honest with your boyfriend and friends/family about the way you feel. Your true friends will stick by you and continue to love you and anyone who doesn't. .. well that's their choice!

Set tiny goals, take tiny steps and you will get through this!

Take care xx