Well, here it is. I'm a senior if that makes any difference. I have lost 2 parents in the last few years. We were very close and the 7 years my darling independent mum had alzhtimers was tramactic as I carried both my grief and my dads. I still morn their loss. Also, my only child, an adult son has dismissed me from his life and I don't know why. I have tried and tried to open communication with him but to no avail. I divorced when he was very young and he is living near his dad in the states. I am fortunate as his dad and I are friends he lets me know how my son is doing. Son was very close to his grandmother, yet he didn't even call when me when my mum died. I'm so hurt and confused. My son is very bright but is a liitle odd in some respects. He had learning disabilities, is still into role playing games...is a computer geek. Without going into details, I suspect that he has a personality problem. He was raised in a very gentle and caring family. It's been 10 years since I have heard from him although he did come home to attend his grandfathers funeral.
My family was once a large one but they are all distant or have passed on. Sometimes I feel so lonely and abandoned and life seemes such an effort. There are a lot of little things thT I just don't care about any more. I am on medication for depression and a sleep disoder and do have the support do husband and 2 friends. However, these don't fill the hole in my heart.