Basically I've decided I'm going to end my life. I understand it's a very selfish thing to do but please before carrying on realise that I generally know that this will make me happy and is definitely happening. I just need help which is considered the least painful way? See I figured that I'd leave the country and do it because that way my friends can always retain hope that I'm alive but I have no other option and I know you guys on here are brilliant at helping people but I don't need that I just need advice l. I'm sorry I couldn't make it through this because I'm sure some of you are strong enough to do so. Thank you for everything.