caracoveney7 years ago

What's the point? Nothing changes. Whatever you plan to do, there are others in this world who hate to see you happy and try to destroy you. I have seen this while trying to pull myself out of depression. Wicked individuals decide that you are not depressed enough, and, after more than two years of depression and counselling because of this individual's spiteful actions while I was trying to put on theatre productions, has tried his hardest to ruin it by using his power to do so, by removing my advertising and other spiteful actions. The fact that my dog died during that week (last week) and I was also recovering from a very uncomfortable operation (which I am still feeling the effects of), and he knew it, made no difference whatsoever. He positively GLOATED that he had got the better of me after years of trying (and failing) to destroy other productions. I would name this so-and-so but I guess this would not be published. Thankfully, I have 3 wonderful cats who have kept me going, otherwise, believe me, I would not be here. They need me, even if no-one else does. And, in my more lucid moments, I know that I have a lot to be thankful for - I rent a dear little house, have enough food etc, even though I am up to my eyes in debt. I hate hating someone, but I can do little else. He has been cruel, is a psychopath, who is utterly charming to those he wants to 'fool', who believe that I must be at fault as 'surely he wouldn't do that?' You betcha he would, and he did and will continue to do so until someone finally puts a stop to him. So, no New Year's resolutions from me - I tried them for the past two years (turn the other cheek, rise above his level, etc etc), yet I end each year depressed and lonely and waiting for the next spiteful action.

Chrispaddy in reply to caracoveney7 years ago

So sorry for u firstly get rid of wot make u unhappy only u can take charge of u x

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Hidden7 years ago

I don't see why a new year means any kind of change is more likely to take place. It's a change of date not a change of state. If you realise you have the potential to resolve something then the actual moment of realisation is the time that the change should be started. Waiting for a new year is just an excuse to avoid dealing with the issue at that time and if you need an excuse to wait then you are more likely to not follow through long term. An arbitrary date doesn't mean a thing. Sorry.

darkshadow7 years ago

I agree. The date is man made--not valid in a universal context. We all go round in circles.

cecilia13 in reply to darkshadow7 years ago

I agree with you . Actually a lot of things are arbitrary and also there are too many expectations around . Maybe this is why many of us are miserable .

True we are all going in circles and biding for time when Death will at last deliver us from everything and at last we can stop overthinking .

I think the dead are better off than the living .

I wish I was a stone and not feel anything and not be in pain any more .

cecilia13

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CJ20167 years ago

Hopefully the start of next year will be like the start of last year,in that i get back to working out,and my mood stays good,until i at least lose the weight i gained when my mood was pants.

And also to pay off all the bills i have incurred over the last two and a bit month's,after impulse buying again,and again,and again,although the car i had wanted for a while now,although i didn't plan to get it so soon,ah well.

Reposting17 years ago

To get on with it , thank God I'm always saddled with other people's problems so I'm kept busy which is a shame at times because I would like to draw and paint but maybe I might brood too much at the moment ,but I still get the hankering to finish one i started about 7wks ago

wendyjones7 years ago

Just feel same things happen every year we have nothing but bad stuff happen and then have to wait 6months for someone to get back to me although I'm suicidal great services. I have a crap life so don't see the point