Well, Week 2 got off to a very bad start.
It was with great trepidation that I set out to do Week 2 Run 1 and I was proved right to be worried. I managed the first three 90 second runs, but by the fourth I could hardly breathe, my legs were like lead, my chest felt like it was going to explode, my head was pounding and it was taking all my strength to put one foot in front of the other - even to walk. For some reason I'd got it into my head that there would only be 5 runs so I did my best to pull it together and kept telling myself "just one more run to go, just one more run to go" and I made it. Imagine my horror, then, when 2 minutes later Laura tells me to run again. I tried really hard to do it, but after about 25 seconds I had to give it up and go back to walking.
To be honest, I have no idea how I got home. I could hardly move, I was crying (which didn't help the not-being-able-to-breathe situation) and just seemed to be in a total daze. By the time I did get home I was in a right state and felt so sad and such a failure. I considered going back to Week 1 and asked the advice of Community members. The answers, advice and encouragement I received was invaluable and I thank all of those who took the time to respond, it meant a lot and once I'd calmed down I decided to try again on Wednesday and take it from there.
Week 2 Run 2 was hard-going. Again, by the fourth 90 second run I didn't think I'd manage it, but I did! I did all six of the 90 second runs. Now, as I've stated before, my light jogs are probably brisk walks to most people, but I'm doing it and trying my hardest and that's all I can do.
Week 2 Run 3 yesterday was also completed and when I got home I felt much, much better. However, I will be repeating Week 2 before moving on. I'm not being a defeatist, I'm being a realist, I'm not ready to jog for any longer than 90 seconds at the moment, so instead of not being able to do it and feeling like a failure, I just want to be a wee bit more comfortable and help get my confidence back up. I don't have a time limit to work to or a deadline to reach, I want to be able to run with my children and that's my only goal. If it takes me longer to get there then so be it.
But I will get there. In my own time.
And thank you to all the Community Members out there who have taken the time to offer their help and advice. Hope you're all doing ok with your own C25K plans and beyond!