WK4 RUN 1 So disappointed

[amya86]

I have just done run 1 of week 4 and so annoyed at myself (when I should feel proud I've came this far) actually feel angry 😡

Was managing it all alright until the last walk, there was a group of dog walkers (all with dogs off the lead) so had to keep walking way longer than I was supposed to. Restarted the last 5 min run when i passed them all and managed until the 2 and half min prompt then just stopped. Felt I couldn't do anymore, walked for 10 secs then pushed on again until the 1 min to go prompt and I simply stopped, I allowed the negative thoughts to win 😡😡🙈

However I kept walking until I felt all calmed down, breathing back to normal and I restarted the last run again. And I actually done it! I ran for 5 mins......TWICE! 😁

So yes I'm disappointed I didn't manage it all without any issue but trying to be proud of myself and not let the negativity win. I will continue with run 2 in the hope I can manage it. Am I being too hard on myself? It's a game of two halves in my head, part of me is like "hell yeah I just done that" and the other part is going "no you didn't, you failed, give up now", is it just me? 😥

[yellowsandy99 Graduate]

You did it. You did it. Feel proud. We all have days that don’t go as planned. Focus on the fact you did it and move forward. Well done

[amya86 in reply to yellowsandy99]

Thank you! I did do it, didn't I? Not 100% as it was supposed to be done but I done every single run, in the end lol!

[saylum]

Half the battle if this running lark is the battle in your head.

I listen to music I know the words to and lip sync as I'm running. That way my brain has a focus not on the running but on the music.

It works for me. Give it a try.

[amya86 in reply to saylum]

Will defo give it a go, I do listen to music but not playlists created by me so half the songs I don't know lol! Thanks

[sallenson Graduate]

I had a sh*t morning too. Don't beat yourself up. You're still a good person doing the right thing. And we are gonna beat this sucker

Put it down to experience. We don't learn from success. We learn from "not quite success"!!

[amya86 in reply to sallenson]

Not easy is it, literally having an argument with myself most of the way 😂

You are right tho, we will beat it. To think I'm even on week 4 is amazing to me, wanted to re-do week 1 as I struggled so much! Thankyou

[oldwheezer69 Graduate]

You're being waaaaaaaay too hard on yourself! You're doing just grand. Keep it up! 😀

[amya86 in reply to oldwheezer69]

I thought I was. Fingers crossed for a better run on Wednesday (so long as these blisters don't hurt as much 😥) Thanks

[mfamilias Graduate]

It's up to the dog owners to keep track of their dogs, there's no reason you should change your plans just because they aren't respecting the rules. You have the right to be there and the right to run. So do it.

You ran the five minutes, twice, so be proud of yourself. If you are unforgiving with yourself and want to tick all the boxes, get back out there and do it again, just for your ego's sake... but this time, take your best Paddington stare with you for those dog-walkers.

[amya86 in reply to mfamilias]

I did get jumped on by a dog when I was doing the first 5 min run and heard the owner scold the dog, on my way back I seen it was on the lead. So annoying but I know the route I have been doing is popular with dog walkers. Maybe change my route but it's all hills near me and bugger that 😂🙈

I will do the next 2 and depending on how I feel I may re-do one run again. At this point I'm doubtful of my ability to complete it all without a longer walk inbetween but will keep going and not take it so much to heart when I fail. Thankyou

[123-wjt]

Heyyyyy you are defo being too hard on yourself. No one is judging you. I too did wk4/1 today and found the last 5 mins run hard going /walked for a few seconds/Picked it up and ran a little longer at the end. You though ran another 2 times for 5 mins each so I’d say you smashed it. Blinking ‘eck that’s got to be positive. Give the negative thoughts the elbow. 👍🏼