This post will contain some (unjustified) moaning. Sorry for that but I have to share my thoughts with persons who might understand my grumpyness.
It's not my time for running at the moment.
I was absolutely not in looking forward to my run on Friday but nevertheless did it. I didn't enjoy a single second of it but was too stubborn to simply stop so I continued and finished the run. Aldi had stopwatches last week and as I don't take my mobile with me, I bought one to finally get my proper times. I finished my run after 32:56minutes and covered 5.0316 km (every meter counts ) so it was pretty good but still didn't really make me happy as I did not enjoy the run at all. My grumpyness was crowned a wonderful cramp in my calf when I got up from a stool 30 minutes after my return from the run. I know I should be content with this run but, no, I'm not. I also think that this unjustified grumpyness influenced my next run.
I had a very important exam yesterday so I didn't find time to run on Sunday which was also the first time I missed one of my 3 runs a week. I always tried to avoid missing a run because I was (and still am) afraid that I might fall back into old habits and start skipping runs on a regular basis. I felt a bit guilty but accepted that I simply had no time to go out. Yesterday, after 4 hours of writing an exam, I felt too knackered to go for a run. I wanted to go today but another recently very common problem kept me on the couch. Where has my motivation gone?
I need your help: How do you motivate yourself? If you have time on a run day and can chose to go whenever you want: Do you set a time for leaving? It's getting harder and harder for me to put on my gear and go for a run.
I finally managed to motivate myself with the fact that I would be disappointed if I skipped another run so I set off at 9 p.m. You can see how much I had to fight to motivate myself as I planned to go out around 10 a.m.
The run was ok, not very exhausting and the only "problem" I had were my whistling lungs which was a bit embarrassing as I sounded like Thomas the tank engine. Fortunately, my breathing was not affected by these strange noises. I did a 30 minutes run which I tracked back at home. I thought I had done ok, not my best run but definitely a good one. Well, it was only 4.25K in 30 minutes and thus one of my worst runs ever.
I don't know how I can motivate myself to go out on Thursday. It's just getting so hard to keep running...
Thank you for reading and sorry again for the constand moaning...