The end of December 2016 I went through a major traumatic experience involving a therapist I was seeing for anxiety and panic attacks. He sexually assaulted me and then used threats and manipulation to the point I was terrified of reporting him. He assaulted me 9 times on a weekly basis until I became suicidal and went to a crisis center and they finally convinced me to report him. I reported him to police and they used the extensive evidence I had text, pictures and a phone call the detectives recorded in which he admitted to everything to obtain a warrant for his arrest in April. I lived in fear of mine and my families life being harmed for the two months of investigation and after he was arrested and released on bond. In May he was to be arraigned on 9 felonies and 2 felonies of insurance fraud by the state attorney. The day before he was arraigned he committed suicide. I have such a heavy burden from his suicide and feel somewhat responsible because I reported him. After his suicide his family told me he had done this to many clients and no one ever reported him. When asked why he did it he said "because I could." My life has been consumed by this since December and I was diagnosed with PTSD. I am now on medication that helps somewhat but, this week have been experiencing more depression. I know I will never forget what happened but, I would like to live my life without the constant intrusive thoughts. I have never felt what happened was reality. Before all of this I was mostly happy with my life except for the anxiety and panic attacks. I am not sure what would help me at this point.