Seems like just im living and not progressing. I'm on leave from work until Dec 18. Worried will not be ready to go back. Night mares & flashbacks are getting stronger. I am taking a Dbt skills class, which is helping slightly. It's actually an IOP program. I do have a different therapist at the program, but I don't really know her or trust her. There is a nurse practioner that I see for medication. I have not received any medication. I really do not like this woman. I'm in her office for about 5 min because I have nothing to say to her. I'm really tired of them asking "are you safe" why would I tell them if I had a plan so they can lock me up in the hospital. Also, frustrated due to the trainer doesn't understand have no appetite and can't eat. On a positive note, the therapist does understand about me not eating. She wants me to start on focusing on getting some extra sleep.
Feeling alone & hopeless. Now, that I can't see my own therapists until I'm done. My healing have been placed on hold. Every morning waking up in a bad mood due to wishing not to wake up. Still can't shed a tear and always in a bad mood. So tired & exhausted of everything and don't know what to do. Right now feeling so neasous and have a migraine. Just ready to give up.