Hi 3 years on after diagnosis white cell 16.3 to 51 lymphocyte 11.88 to 44.88 hemoglobin 123 platelets 264 I understand that these are good results. But after 3 years of watch and wait I still feel like I am siting on a time bomb with no clock not knowing when it is going to detonate . I go to hospital at Leicester royal every 6 months all I get very fatigued but still can not get the fact I have blood cancer out of my head do any of you fellow sufferers feel the same. I read all of your post and don't know how you all cope so well. Sorry for the moan but just need to put it down I find it hard to talk to my family and my husband of 40 years so I don't worry them. I know I am lucky with me not needing treatment and feel guilty for that is this wrong.