First of all, I have a facial palsy caused by a total of 3 tumours in my head.It has been a very hard road and after 15/16 years I still can't accept how I look, I have endured around 80 hours of surgery to remove the tumours and to reconstruct my face. I hate the way I look. and quite frankly can't ever see myself as a beautiful woman. I hate what i see in the mirror.
I have recently split from my partner of nine years. He had an affair with a tall, pretty leggy blonde. I however am a petite brunette with half a paralysed face!. please can someone give me some advice on how to cope with the rejection and betrayal and the fact she was the complete opposite of me. I am terrified of my future and being alone. I am aware that i am not the kind of woman men look at in pubs/clubs (i hate them anyway) but how do I meet someone new,? people are so fickle and looks do come in to it. I know that my looks didn't bother my ex as he did see my inner beauty, but now I am left feeling so so low and even more unattractive than I ever did. We have a 4 year old son and I feel I am left to put on an albeit wonky smile to keep his life normal when in actual fact I am broken inside and desperately lonely. Any advice would be good, thanks guys.
P.s I have signed up for the Staines 10K and am doing it to raise money for changing faces and because of this making sure i get out the house and stop moping about.