I’m stina, just recently turned 40.
Long story short ( as short as possible) I was given antibiotics for a non painful ear infection, 2 drs later I was told no infection. A trip to hospital I was told there was an infection and was given penicillin. 48 hours later I was violently sick and told to go to a&e where I saw a dr who said no infection but I should be seen by audiology.
I don’t have my own dr as she is off , 2 doctors I’ve seen have wanted me to be seen by ENT urgently, ENT won’t class it as urgent and want me to be seen by audiologists.
The referrals still haven’t been made, I’ve had no formal diagnosis, and just left with screeching in my ear as well as hearing loss 24/7.
The anxiety really hit in awfully last week and I was so frightened of living with this that I was so desperate I called the Samaritans.
I felt like I was going mad as I’m a strong get up and go type of person. They were amazing and calmed me down, my best friend and mum came round as I was in a uncontrollable mess with no idea why this noise wouldn’t stop.
With my mum I went to see a Dr as I was worried about my decline in mental health, she gave me more zopiclone ( which don’t keep you asleep )
I tried to go back to work but had a panic attack so left after 2 hours, I called the drs as I was really worried about my own thoughts. She gave me 2 weeks diazapam.
That was my last visit and not one dr has given me any help or advice on Tinnitus.
Mornings are by far my worse, waking up from 3/4 hours sleep to that same dam screeching and feeling totally and utterly worthless.
I get my moments where I’m feeling strong but seriously is there anyone else who has been so Absolutley terrified?
My coping strategies would ideally be talking to others, CBT, and an actual diagnosis.
My life has changed dramatically and so fast and I want to get it back under some control.
Thanks for reading x