Joined this in the hope of getting some support.
My father was diagnosed with final stage liver cirrhosis noticed by prominent ascites in March 2018. I have supported him to numerous appointments in hospital (endoscopy, draining of the abdominal fluid) and even an admission to a detox ward in a mental health hospital I work with.
My dad has been alcohol free for the past 6 months and we have had the best relationship I have tried my best to keep in contact daily and help with anything I can. Just this week however he has started drinking again and doesnt plan to attend any further appointments and has started making funeral plans for when the inevitable happens.
I am finding this very hard to cope with it feels as though he has given up and I find the relationship with my dad when he is drinking difficult as he can be quite snappy. My dad describes alcohol as 'better than medicine' for his underlying anxiety and depression diagnosis. Thus the reason for drinking again.
As a mental health nurse myself I feel particularly useless and this is contributing mostly to the sadness I feel alongside the realness of having to grieve for my dad so young (im 23 and he is 56 years).
Anyone going through a similar situation id appreciate hearing from you.