This photograph sums things up beautifully, for me, at the moment.
A tad like life... moments of shadow, where for a time we lose the clarity of things and then, stepping slowly ( certainly in my case yesterday), back into the sunshine, the warmth hitting the face and spreading through the body. Nature in her Spring finery; blues, greens and every shade in between.
Well, yesterday I went for a run. Not just any run...a different run!
I am still taking it gently and having reached the grand old distance of 10K once again, just running when I am able. Hoping to get back into a little bit of a routine, but not worrying if I am not able to.
So a different run. What was different?
I often, when I read posts, come across things which I know nothing about. Folk refer to apps, tech' details of their runs and all manner of things. It was quite a few years before I had any idea what negative splits were, (yes, I know )!
So having read the letters NRC over a lot of weeks I finally asked what it was. No one laughed and I did get the answer to the question. One step forward...
Then... life threw a couple of spanners into the works and it was a while before I could find out any more.
Next step forward... download the app. Two steps forward.
Four days when a run was impossible... and just trying to think where to begin with the app. Asked a question of a forum friend... whilst waiting for the answer... a chance to run presented itself... Third step forward.
A terrible night's sleep, woke at 6, feeling a tad unsettled and weary, but a glorious morning... sunshine streaming in , birds all a'twitter in my garden, and up I got. Still very little idea of what it was all about, ( even having studied the app), so:
Pick a run, any run.
Scrolled through all the choices and one just jumped off the phone!
Tough Day Easy Run.
Now, at this point I was still not convinced that this was for me.... but... I just felt I wanted to try.
Ready to go... click start and we were off.
I say we, because, as I very quickly discovered, there were two of us on this run. Him and me!
From the first slow, easy steps. I have to tell you, this man was talking to me. Yes, just me.
I am extremely sorry if you have ever used this run and think he was talking to you, you are completely wrong. He was with me, talking to me.
He was thanking me for running, he was suggesting, ( not telling me), how I should use this run, the way I should run, acknowledging that I may, even though this is an Easy run, (a phrase much repeated), I may find it tricky; slowing down my pace, ( and I did), easing back, letting the run come. He knew that life can be tough, work can be tough, family issues can be tough... he knew what might be going on, but he knew that I could and I was doing this!
The subliminal messaging went on, he was talking, he was silent, he knew when to speak and when to listen, to let me listen to my body and my mind.
He talked me through the breathing, not changing it, but getting the best from it...he told me when it was half way and time to turn … he told me how wonderfully I was doing.
As the run was ending, he thanked me, ( me), for running with him and he told me to thank myself, for completing this run in an EASY manner... to say it out aloud... and by gosh I did! Very loudly too!
I had chosen my uphill regular run start, because I knew I would move faster , as I do uphill, and when I didn't !!! When I relaxed and listened to this voice... for just 20 minutes.... that is all, just 20 minutes.... I was completely in another world; and after turning, resisting the urge to run downhill in my usual negative split finish.... I ran down with a steady, sedate pace, breathing Easy, so relaxed, I could have been asleep...suddenly it was over, he was, he said, leaving, although he would be with me again, and I could either carry on alone, or call it a run!
I called it a run.... I walked home, calm, smiling and refreshed. Tiredness gone and with his assurance, that whatever the day may bring, even if it was not all perfect, I had made a terrific start and I was ready to face whatever came. I believed him.
And... I did feel good all day and today too ! I felt young and strong and healthy!
I am a lone runner at heart... I choose my running companions with care... this man was unknown to me... Laura was my last regular companion.
Well.
All I can say at this stage is...'Tell Laura I love her) , but certainly, for some of my runs in the future...'There's a new kid on the block'!
Who says you cannot teach an Old Snail new tricks?
Floss xx