Worried again :(

Hello all so im here again needing to talk to all you lovely ladies , so as u all know my breast cancer as reaccured , I started my chemo just over 2 weeks ago , I had my ct and bone scan maybe 4 weeks or so ago , when i saw my oncologist he didn't see anything on my ct scan that was too worrying , u know they have to tell u every little thing they see but nothing was there that really was a concern but end of last week I have a phone call to book me in for a pelvic ultrasound scan , I was baffled as to why so i contacted my breast care nurse, she couldnt see why too and said that everything seemed ok on my results , then yesturday i recived the letter off my breast consultant saying that they have saw something on the ct scan on one of my ovaries and his words were 'this may well be normal "however" he'd like me to have the scan .. you see I had cervical cancer 5 years in May coming , which was caught very early at stage 1 I had a hystorectommy , and no more treatment was needed .. they were going to keep my ovaries but when i was in theatre they saw a large abcess on one of them so they took it away , iv also had the results yesturday of my latest vault smear test and that as came back as normal and they have now discharged me from that area ... iv been for the ultrasound scan today at the ante natal clinic .. but I'm totally scared of the results .. I'm back to square one again with the worry , crying , not eating .. I'm making myself poorly :( .. please can I apologise for the long message .. I hope u are all okay and well and having a lovely Christmas xxxx

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  • You have no reason to apologise for the long post, I can't begin to understand what you are going through, but I can send good luck love and hugs for the coming weeks, keep posting no matter how long or short xxxxxx

  • So sorry to read this, it must be so frightening for you. The good thing is that they are taking this seriously and investigating. Hopefully it will be good news. I know it's easier said than done but try not to worry until you know what you are dealing with. Sending you love and best wishes xx

  • Really sorry you are dealing with this, do not apologise for long post, any one of us would be the same. Thoughts are with you x

  • So sorry to hear this. The worst part is the emotional suffering...remember it may well turn out to be nothing to worry about and then you will look back and feel sad about how tormented you made yourself. Try the very best you can to shrink time and live for the moment. Find a way to extract enjoyment from every day - treat yourself to all the treats you love and spend time with people who make you feel good. Don't be scared to lean on others and ask for support - you absolutely deserve it. But at the same time keep telling yourself that whatever the outcome you will deal with it when the time comes. I find that faith and prayer is very helpful and whenever I am distressed I just go there and receive comfort. This may not be for everyone but the most important thing to remember is that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Wishing you lots of love and hugs and all the best xxxxxxx

  • So sorry you have been faced with more uncertainty. I know it's good to get things checked out but very tough to cope with. No one can reassure you nor would you want false reassurance . You don't say whether it is the side where yoiu still have an ovary or the other where there may be scarring.

    Hope the days soon pass till you know results

  • I am so sorry you are going through this again 🤦‍♀️.. This is the fear that we all have. I just went through a surgery again but it was not cancer thank goodness. Just try and keep your spirits up try and feed yourself nourishment for strength even if you are not hungry. The new developments in treating cancer are awesome looking such advancement everyday. I pray the very best for you❤️❤️

  • My thoughts are with you and sending lots of positivity for results that give you an all clear. xxxxxxxxxCaroline

  • Oh I completely understand how you feel....I hope your US came back as all is well xoxoxo

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