Just home from hospital from post mastectomy surgery consultation, I am absolutely devastated as surgeon explained that all 12 lymph nodes removed at time of mastectomy had cancer present and I now have to go in for total lymph node clearance. To be followed by both chemotherapy and radiotherapy and Herceptin. I am still in shock just not sure what the future holds for me now, do I have a realistic future? What about the grandchildren l may not see, time spent with my wonderful husband in our retirement. Sorry for being so morbid but this has been such a shock, thank you for allowing me to rant.