Feeling really low today. One way I feel incredibly lucky as got away with both surgeries with very little neurological deficit but starting to notice my memory isn’t as good and becoming frustrated. Feel so tired still. Feel I should be back to me and feel my family all feel I should be. They act like I’m unscathed yet I feel different and still have worries and concerns. Weird occasional pains in my head, itchy scalp, puffy swollen blurred eye, now not happy with look of final Cranioplasty, getting increasing blurred vision in one eye scared it’s gonna effect my driving again so wanna keep quiet but also want it sorted. Feel such pressure to be ok and act ok and be back to 100% but feel far from it. Feel husband and children are tired of it all now! Don’t feel I can talk to anyone.