OK to start with I'm 24 and have been with the same guy for 7 years now (love him to bits!!). We're not married as we want to celebrate in style and we currently do not have the money we want to spend on a wedding.
I'm a full time university student finishing July this year (YAY!) and I'M PREGNANT. We weren't actively trying but I had the implant removed in September due to masses of weight gain and being on it for six years was taking its toll, but we said if it happens it happens we are stable and happy.
So I was naughty and took the tests early (2 days before period was due) but both (different batches) of pregnancy tests came back positive.
I thought I would be over the moon of excitement (which I am, sort of, now) when I found out but I cried with my first reaction being what is everyone (society) going to say. ALL of my friends and my sister are all sooo excited and all said "i knew it/ about time too" but there's part of me that is absolutely terrified!!
My partner knows this as we always talk and he said its normal and just the shock factor but I am literally terrified of the thought of being a mum.
Am I going to be good enough?
Can I really look after another human being?
What the hell is my mum going to say - as I told her jokingly we were kind of trying and she said "I don't think so not until you get a job"?
I know his parents will be ecstatic and sooo happy (especially his mum) but my mum not so much I don't think as she's had to do all the work of bringing us up herself.
What about money? He earns enough for us to get by without me working but as I have been unemployed for 3 years I'm not entitled to any benefits ... we will survive??
Talking to my sister and friends started to put me at ease and get us all excited although now we are both worried it's a false positive (have a doctors appointment this evening to confirm) or we lose the baby early on!!
Sorry for SUCH a long post but I feel like I'm all over the place and have no idea what to feel!