Hi, When my 82 year old mother was diagnosed with lung cancer a year ago, I cared for her for the 5 months until she passed away in July 2012 - so when she was gone I decided I really needed to check out my own lungs after many years of thinking it was probably just about getting older that I struggled to climb hills when out hiking with my family. (I'm 57).
After a chest x-ray, followed by a referral to Chest Specialist and a CT scan, Last Thursday I went for the results (my GP practice suggested it could be bronchiectasis, which I had by then researched and was prepared for) but I have now been told that I have scarring on my lungs, but no evidence of cancer. The registrar offered a biopsy or follow up in 3/4 months and said that my lung function tests were OK.
My immediate reaction was, if you don't think it's cancer, why are you offering me a biopsy? Anyway, I left his office rather stunned and went straight home to investigate what lung scarring actually mean't. Since then I have worked myself into a bit of a state. Suddenly thinking that maybe I only have a few years left and feeling tearful and worried.
My husband works abroad and our plans were for him to retire early, in early 2014 and we have so many plans......I feel numb and I really don't know what to do! I just want to talk to my mum, who was my best friend.
I'm probably getting it all out of proportion, but I've been lucky enough to have been pretty healthy all my life and now I just want this problem to disappear. I feel like I'm feeling worse since I had the appointment - but I know it's just the knot in my stomach and the lump in my throat from feeling so worried, nervous, anxious, and every other emotion.
My daughter also works abroad and my son is in London, just feeling a bit lost and don't really want to talk to my family about this as I don't want to upset them.
Would be good to hear any positive experiences you've had to keep my spirits up and stop me slipping (stupidly) into a depression......