We (me especially) have had what can be called a blo### terrible 2012. We have seen the hospital and emergency room more times than we care to mention. No help at all from the caring system that is supposed to look after you, spent a fortune in 'phone calls chasing things up, no help at all from the GP's, and a husband that treats me like his own personal slave. The one saving grace with this lovely community, I have vented my anger out about my husband on these blogs and it has definitely helped otherwise I would have walked out or killed him.
In September an angel called THE COMMUNITY MATRON came to see us, after I had been on the computer, found out about this service and asked the GP's why they did not tell us about her, and everything changed. We got everything we needed and it made our life so much easier.
All I need now is for my husband to stop thinking he is going to die every day of the damned week and get off his backside and do something, instead of sitting there wasting away and feeling sorry for himself. He has oxygen, nebulisers, antibiotics , wheelchair and everything else known to man. He has been told by the physio who comes to the house that he has to move about and exercise as he is making himself worse but all he says is 'I can't'. He is slowly killing me mentally and physically as he is absolutely nasty to me and it is fetch me this and fetch me that. The Matron told him this week that he needs to get his head round the fact that if I had a nervous breakdown or was taken ill what would happen to him, he would have to do something for himself. She has told me to get out of the house for a few hours a week and get my life back. I was ill yesterday felt absolutely awful so took myself off to bed as I honestly could not lift my arms I was aching so much, my husband said, 'what about me' so I said two very, very naughty words and used my fingers to show him as well and went to bed, I am okay today I must have got a bad chill.
Look out 2013, here I come, and if he doesn't like it then he can stick it.
I wish everyone on this forum and Very Merry Christmas and a very healthy and happy new year. Thank you all for your support and lovely messages, you have got me through a terrible time, a time I never thought I would get over. I am now stronger and will take everything in my stride and not get upset about it. My New Years resolution is put myself first as if I don't my husband will be the the who suffers as if I get ill or have a breakdown he will have to go into a care home as my sons have told me that they will not look after him.
Lots of love and best wishes to you all for the future I will speak to you all in the New Year.xxxxxxxxxxx