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fidgetandscooter
fidgetandscooter
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I'm sorry I haven't checked in for such a long time. Since I came out of hospital in December I have not been myself. I've been diagnosed with depression now and this just makes not being physically able to do things worse.

I will try to check in more often but nothing seems to go according to plan these days.

I hope everyone else is keeping stable and enjoying the warm, but not hot, weather. I think of all of you most days and wonder how you all are. I hope you stay well for as long as possible.

Here is a recent picture of Fidget.

Signing off for now. x

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sassy59

So lovely to hear from you again but sorry to hear about your depression. Chat to us whenever you feel like it as that may help in some way.

Love the photo of Fidget and do please stay in touch. Xxxxx

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Oshgosh

It’s good to hear from you.please keep in touch, I know it’s hard ,but try to post more often .

I think the contact will do you good.look after yourself.

Give yourself a big hug every morning

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Artichokes

Hello again. I'm so very sorry to hear about your depression- it's a horrible thing, but please remember that there are always people here to talk to who will listen and can identify with at least some of your situation. Is there any way any of us can help? Thinking of you and sending my very best wishes and moral support. xxx

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sandiw947

Hi and if you like Coca Cola my sons nurse said one ounce every morning helps with depression! Works for him if you can stop at one ounce! (Maybe 1 and 1/2!) Have a great day!!!

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skischool

Throw away that diagnosis but keep the pills if prescribed,one person's depression is just another person's pissed of with life syndrome.you can tell i don't have a great deal respect for the psychiatric profession lol.

Pop on here as and when you feel able and we will do our best to cheery you up. :)

Ski's and Scruff's x

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fidgetandscooter

Ever since the COPD really made a difference to what I could do physically I have always said that I am just frustrated. My GP knows me very well and when I last saw him he was asking what I was up to and I said I wasn't doing anything. He asked if I was drawing and I said that I hadn't done any since December. He knows that nothing stops me from drawing, so after some more questions he said that he thought I was in denial and that I did have depression rather than frustration. Thinking about it, I know he is right. I am not one to sit and do nothing but that is what I have been doing for 9 months. I haven't been out of the house since 31st August. My breathing has got worse and my SATS are jumping around like a box of frogs, anything between 86 and 91. My pulse first thing in the morning is usually about 110. My sense of humour fortunately keeps me going as does Fidget.

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Nicholatracy

So glad you’re back. Depression is a stinker. Keep busy go outside and don’t let this beat you........you are in control. 🐞

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HungryHufflepuff

It's good to see you. Sending lots of good wishes your way 💐

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Don-1931

I think you have forgotten about the periods that you were doing so well since last December, you had quite a lot going for you which you shared with us on here. We all get periods of feeling down and it often takes quite an effort to get back up again. The fact that you are posting again is a very good sign. So don’t let us down now. 😉 Get that scooter out in the good weather that we have been promised. 😀

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Phil40

Hi, lovely picture.

I have long periods when my depression gets the better of me and I can only manage the absolute basic essential stuff to get to the next day.

It is awful and there is no thinking my way out. But it does lift sooner or later and suddenly the bleak stuff seems to fade and fade and sometimes even some good smilie stuff breaks through. Eventually. Hopefully.

I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2015 after witnessing some deaths which really made me very ill for several years. Always easier in hindsight to get a bit of an understanding of the timeline, if nothing else!

Hope tomorrow is better for you, my friend.

Regards

Phil

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Lemon7

Sending the very best of good wishes to you and fidget. Depression is so difficult to deal with but I hope you can find the will and energy to do the things you usually enjoy. Meet friends if possible, your artistic talents and so on. Take care of yourself. Hope better days are here soon for you. xx

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Izb1

Nice to hear from you again Fidgetscooter, sorry to hear you have been suffering but sounds like you are on the up. The picture of Fidget made me smile, she looks regal in that pose, this is the one thing that will make you get up in the morning, an animal is dependant on you and gives you so much unconditional love, her need for a walk helps you to get out and about, which helps with the depression. Keep us updated x

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Ergendl

Love the photo of Scooter - she's really posing for the camera. So sorry about your depression. I've had it in the past and it took regular contact with other people who had faced the sort of demons I faced to help bring me out of it. (The psychiatrists only pedalled pills.) So as others have said, keep coming back on here, chatting with us, interacting. If there is someone you think has walked your walk and found a way out, message them privately and get some additional support. Wishing you all the best, M.

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garshe

Hi. My Motto is concentrate on what you CAN do not what you can't . I have severe COPD diagnosed 10yrs ago. I can still do almost everything it just takes a bit longer. Do everything at a slower pace and you will get there in the end ..theres no rush. Try being Positive as this helps with depression and anxiety. Take care. Sheila.

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ledge

Its a brave thing to own up to depression so blooming well done. Having a long term illness certainly makes the demon of depression a little more harder to bare, and in some respects its almost causal. But remember a small phrase, you may have depression. But don't let depression have YOU. Let the little bit of you that makes you shine and uniquely you, twinkle. xxxx Talk to us when ever, because I guess that there's not one of us on this group that at some time hasn't been visited even if briefly by that demon.

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fidgetandscooter

I just don't seem to recognise myself anymore. The me who used to be so active and always dashing to get on with the next project seems to have melted away, albeit slowly. Almost everything has gone. Walking Fidget is very hard, but he's 11 and 6 bits now with a dodgy foot so is not bothered if he doesn't walk every day. I'm trying my best to find things at home that take my fancy, but nothing comes to mind at the moment. My drawing equipment is on the table all ready to use. So far I just walk passed it. One day I will stop, sit down and pick up a pencil. I don't know when that day will be though.

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ledge

pm me whenever you fancy it. x

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fidgetandscooter

Thank you. x

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ledge

That description of you melting away is almost a drawing in the making aka the Raymond Briggs snowman. See if you can put your feelings onto paper. Its the bit of the snowman that's left is the whats the important part. xxxx

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Oshgosh
Oshgosh
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Keep on keeping on

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Lyd12

I blame Autumn, not my favourite time of year. I will try to plan for Spring, look for some new bulbs for the garden to look forward to. The squirrels must be hungry, they are nibbling through the hard cases of the fallen chestnuts, but when they get to the nut they don't really like it and only take a few nibbles. They are raiding the bird nut feeders. I will cut up some bread crusts today. Love Iris x

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Don-1931
Don-1931
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I think you are right there Iris, Autumn was always my favourite time of the year. Children back at school, tourists all gone home, prices come down again and we usually have a bit of Indian Summer, ideal time to be off exploring in the campervan. Now it just emphasises the things I can't do anymore.

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Lyd12
Lyd12
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I agree, and I don't look forward to Christmas these days. Only the thought of Spring gives me hope. Have to get the knitting out and make a new friend for my Sally!

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GintyFerguson

Bad luck, keep in touch. Give Fidget a hug from me.

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fidgetandscooter

I certainly will. He is the one constant in my life.

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dickinson1954

Sending you hugs and good wishes. Try to get out in the forthcoming good weather before the really dismal days set in. x Lovely photo of Fidget. x

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Meg52

It’s lovely to hear from you again. Sorry you are having to cope with depression on top of everything else.

Try and post whenever you feel up to it and remember we are all here for you and understand.

Stay positive, love Meg x

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Shirleyj

Depression is an awful thing, but you can always come for a chat here x x x

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Schmu

Sending hugs from Chicago. It's good you can recognize your depression. I only know it when things are better and I have some prespective. This is a good place to check in. We all have challenges that dont go away and no one else really understands! (Writing this while doing my breathing treatment which takes 45 minutes, which I have to do 2x a day.) I'm so grateful there are people to talk to! I hope you have a good cuddle with your dog.

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Caspiana

Hello fidgetandscooter . 👋

Long time no see. So sorry to hear about your depression. With chronic illness it seems most of us at some point have a brush with depression and anxiety gladly joins the party too. 😕 I hope you are receiving on going support from a medical professional. Do come on here when you are able. It is always lovely to hear from you. Hoping you have a good weekend. xx 🐾🐾🍪🐕👋

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Gladwyn

Lovely to see you are back . I have been wondering about you. Fidget is looking quite regal in that pic lol keeping an eye on you 😀 All the best x

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AnnaMT

I hope you feel brighter soon. Sometimes when you are not able to do much, life can seem hard. The main thing is to keep going and do a bit at a time, then hopefully you will realise that you are doing more each time and things are not so bad.

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Patsy164

Hello fidgetandscooter sorry to hear about your depression. You know everyone on here is ready to help or give a little support when you need it.

Lovely picture of fidget xx

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