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"Recovering drug addict receives his up and Cummings"

That's right iam a ex-junkie, iam only able to, admit to it, now, Cos i know its dam well dun and dusted.๐Ÿฅณ. Anyway it's about time i introduced myself, considering ive been receiving for about a year, it's about time i gave back. "obviously , shall we say" my memory a little dented, but i thick i got diagnosed about 5 years ago with copd. Been clean over 2 years, now. Starting to love life again. Shame iam unable to live it to its full potential, ( warning to all you, who are still messing about ) but a, ive been also smokefree nearly 6 months, so still buzzing. When i think back, of how i used to be. Sometimes, taking up to 6 hours to emptying my lungs. my feelings go's out to all you brave people, whose going through that terrible tiring task, every day. I must say, aswell as exercise, music has been my saver. "That's right, butty" turn the t.v. off, starting tomorrow. Stick some tunes on, maybe then it just might get you moving a little.? If you are still reading this "just shows how desperate you are"๐Ÿ˜Ÿ. Gioh, It's agood job, this is for a British audience. Lets gust see if i get any responses. Abuse onlly please,, its ok, i can take it, iam Welsh !

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I read it all and it made me think. My youngest son is an alcoholic and hopefully recovering drug addict. I hope he hasnโ€™t completely screwed up his life but who knows.

Sorry canโ€™t be bothered with abuse as that serves no purpose.

Iโ€™m a carer for my husband who has sarcoidosis and COPD. Itโ€™s no fun. Iโ€™m also mum to three, the youngest of whom is an addict who also suffers from depression.

If youโ€™ve read this, good, I wish you well.

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What an amazing lady you are sassy.

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Thank you for those kind words. Xxxx

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Yes you're right about it not being fun and it isn't always easy being strong for everyone else either. You have my total admiration.

Love

Corin

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Thank you Corin, very kind of you. Love Carole ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿ˜˜

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Thank you sassy for not taking note of my stupidity,nevermind it being my frist post/article ive written in over two decades,that's more to do with my underling insecurities. I can see, not only are you sessible but wise enough to take note of such silly remark so thanks again.

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Youโ€™re welcome and I really do wish you well. Xxxx

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Well done on being clean 2 yrs thats a great achievement.

You have a chance to live a good clean life even with copd make the most of it .

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Thanks kitty, for whose welcoming words and yes, i fully intend of making the best of want i got left.

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I wouldn't dream of abusing you Welsh Steve, not after you have come through two addictions, and coming out the other side ,I admire your bravery be proud of yourself ,also speak proud , please dont put yourself down , i am also Welsh we are made of strong stuff ,so why carnt I give up the cigs ,best wishes to you

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Thank you for those kind words, it's exactly what i needed to hear. I went ahead and pressed post, without reading it back frist! 'Dimwit' Of course, nobody wants to hear abuse, especially off strangers. I think i still have underling rejection problems. As far as giving-up smoking goes, please don't feel useless. There's people out-there (who i know personally) who's managed to give-up herion, yet can't give-up the fags. Even i gave-up the gear (herion) 18 months before i gave-up the fags. So yeh, it can be harder then the so called hardest drug of all. Keep the energy positive and stay strong.

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Hi and I think it's took a great deal of courage to admit everything, well done on being clean for two years what an achievement. You show us how with determination and guts you can achieve things. I admire and respect you for that. Please keep posting and take care of yourself ๐Ÿ˜Š Bernadette xx

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With replys like that, lets just say you've made me feel at ease, Cheers butty

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You should be so proud of yourself, and I'm pleased you feel at ease we are not here to judge people only befriend each other and support them. Take care of yourself and have a lovely day ๐Ÿ˜Š Bernadette xx

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Hello and welcome, although I won't hurl any abuse, there's too much of that 'out there' and this is a great place to get away from all that. Good for you for overcoming your addictions, that's really something ๐Ÿ‘

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Thanks for saying hi, 'nevermind it being my frist post' but nobody wants to hear abuse. 'Yeh' that's my insecurities speaking, that is. don't tell you didn't have a smirk on your face, when you read that "that is" it's a good job it's not dictate tex, because be in stitches. I just love your username, 'i do'๐Ÿ˜‚

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That took guts and a lot of determination to overcome 2 addictions. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘. You should feel so proud of yourself for what you have achieved. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘. Enjoy your life despite copd .๐Ÿ˜€

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What a lovely welsh sounding name. I wish my parents had been a bit more imaginative. To be honest with you, i haven't got to feeling proud mode, just yet, iam still in regret mode. But a, that's hopefully still to come. Anyway iam still buzzing, evan having to go through that laborious tiring ritual, afterwards it don't half feel worth it. Thanks for making yourself known.

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Hi Welshsteveee.... bless your cotton socks, forget regrets. What's done is done and all the regrets in the world won't and can't change that. ๐Ÿ˜ You've been through the battle of your life literally pitting your will against yourself (your addictions) and you've come out on top which is no mean feat.Be very proud of your achievement. ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜

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Thank you gladwyn for the strengthening words you really must be a genuinely nice lady so thanks again.lovely

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Welcome to the forum Welshsteveee . ๐Ÿ˜

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Thanks

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Welcome Steve & well done on the huge efforts youโ€™ve made to turn your life around. No abuse from me Iโ€™m afraid, just hope you can strengthen feelings of resolve & self worth & keep pushing forward.

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Thanks for the welcome, iam glad you didn't throw any abuse at me, 'really'. It was a silly thing to write, i suppose i was perparing myself for rejection. Nice one

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Congratulations on kicking your addictions. A great achievement. Good to hear that you are starting to love life again. Best wishes from Oz.

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What a lovely sounding name, you got. Even with my dum-ass memory i won't forget that name. Normally, i would've apologized for assuming this was a British audience only,'but a' you guys got the same twisted humour as us, anyway.

Thanks for congrats.

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Thank you Welshsteveee for your response. I love the British humour! Enjoy your day!

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Well done!

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Thank you

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Well done for being clean for two years and of course giving up smoking. In many ways I believe I understand how easy it is to become an addict and how hard it is to stop. For the last ten years I have been on opiate based pain killers. I know from experience how difficult coming of morphine is when I have a good period. It's frustrating when I finally come off them to have to go back on them when my arthritis flairs again and I know at some point I will need to stop them again. I think what I am trying to say is that withdrawal is a horrible miserable experience and well done for having the courage to stop.

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Iam most grateful for making yourself known to me. As far opium-based withdrawal (clucking) goes, in my experience theirs not much distinction between heroin,morphine,codeine, etc'. As we used to say,"theirs a easy cluck and theirs a hard cluck, but its a cluck is a cluck". I had friend who was on codeine and as your probably aware as time goes on your tolerance builds-up so you have to take more to have the same effect. Anyway their was a few times he couldn't get-out of bed, even with the encouraging promise of a bottle taps. That would never happen to a heroin-user, because you would always find the strenght to get off your hot inside cold outside ass, to sort yourself out. So to summarise 'yes' i do know where your coming from and 'yes' you definitely knows where iam coming from.

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I started on codeine until I was on the maximum dose. There were times when I reduced the dose but then I had a bad period and the doc put me on a patch. Which is fine, However there is no off switch you get the full dose even if you are having a good day. Then they gave me oramorph for breakthrough pain. I still am on a reduced dose of codeine. My Doctor said I was not an addict but dependent. Basically I think whatever word you use you are still addicted.

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Not a addict but a dependent "really" that's just a doctor's way out of saying I never got you addicted ,when you mentioned patch I assume you're talking about the fentanyl patch if that is the case you are seriously dealing with some pain my heart and thoughts goes out to you

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Good for you๐Ÿ˜„ well done !

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I have a freind who is in her nineties, she puts her longevity down to dancing and walking . So leave the smoking alone and stick with the music, but beware dancing is not the answer for everyone but music can soothe or help with movement. Good luck with your new found life style.

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Thanks for the reply and yes i totally agree with you that music helps you, not just physically but also mentally. 'Gee' i only wish i could dance in the mornings. Maybe for ten seconds at a time in the evenings.

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Well done and welcome to the forum, I'm Welsh to as is my son Steve who has Epilepsy. Xxx

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Thanks for the big-ups

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Hi Stevee , I love your honesty . Well done you ...that's a huge achievement ๐Ÿ†

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'Core' iam not just buzzing from my two achievements,but also buzzing from being honest to myself and others for the frist time in over two decades.

"Absolutely buzzing but" and thats not a but,as in iam about to contradict myself, but a but as in butty.๐Ÿคฃ

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No abuse from me m8, all I have is admiration for you, well done ,I lost a few mates to drugs over the years , I'm glad u had your light bulb moment

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Thanks mate and thanks for not abusing me,thats more about me and my insecurities 'that is'. Yeh, i think ill keep my Welsh phrases in their. It might just give someone alittle giggle ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿ˜ƒ

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Wondered why spelling was,lets say strange.Perhaps it is

because l am used to using a capital letter for a persons name.

And reading what l have written before posting,to check for

mistakes !!!!

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Well done Weshsteveee !!

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Sorry about my previous reply let's just say I was a little sensitive considering I spent 2 hours writing that post please take into account that I have a reading age of 11 year old and that's probably half the reason why I got into drugs in the first place,that's another reason why I actually found the microphone button and I'm now using dictate text I know on your behalf it was just constructive criticism, but it really hit the spot with me because I tried so hard checking every sentence for spelling mistakes how many times I have to Google different words maybe with a bit of time I'll get it right and go back to writing .p.s. I bet you're a retired school teacher

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The past is past ,the future isnโ€™t here yet .....live for today ...good luck on your new life starting now and welcome xx

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Thank you tinker, 'oh' it's so nice to get back on a positive note, as you can see by my previous reply. At least for the fresh taste in my mouth.

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Well done. Keep enjoying your life and take care of yourself.

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Thanks lemmy

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Well Hun ,I'm proud of you !!! And you should be proud of yourself !!! Addiction is an illness , I lost my son 3 years ago to heroin and I cry for him every day xxxx he tried so many times to be clean , it's the worst pain anyone can go threw loosing a son or daughter XXX he was one of the nicest people you could meet !!!! I am end stage emphysema, on oxygen 24 /7 28% lung function ,nearly died twice after loosing my Lee, but he wouldn't let me ,I had to still live for my daughter's and grandchildren, and do you know Hun ,I believe he gets me threw every day !!! I still live life ,alt different , just come back from Spain ,and I'm a total nutcase !!! Was in the pub trade 20 years !!! Hey Hun you're a hero !!! Bless you xxxx

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Thanks for your kind words, I'm terribly sorry to hear to what happen to your Lee, it's absolutely soul-destroying addiction, you know what they say it happens to the best of them,I'll be totally honest with you there is no way I would have been able to give up that crap if it wasn't for my veins collapsing and my lungs Giving In. I even tried snorting it but to no avail because it's still repressed my breathing, so basically I was forced to give up that crap. Listening to the other side of the story makes me realise how lucky and fortunate I am considering not once but twice I overdosed.

Please take comfort knowing there's nothing you could have done for Lee I'm sure, not only did you do your best but you put up with a lot of heartache, I know because I put my loved ones through the same shit and it's still eating me up. on a positive note you got your marvelous grandchildren to look up to now and I'm sure they're gonna need your wisdom as well as your daughter please excuse the grammar and writing because I'm using my new found friend the dictate button hope to talk to you again because that's exactly what I'm doing. P.s I love the fact that you managed to throw in at the end that you were in in the pub trade,'me too' but a landlady will always be a landlady, peace out.

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You're brilliant !!!! Us pub kids are !!!! Haha ,be proud of yourself Every day because you're precious !!! If ever you need a moan or are upset Hun ,I've got big shoulders pm me !! Good luck remember every day is a new day XX bless you xxxxx

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Well done on overcoming your addictions. That is a brilliant achievement and you should be proud of yourself. ๐Ÿ‘ Keep posting. Liz x

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I stopped smoking but addicted to medication doctor gave me for 10 years now they won't let me have it. I don't drink. I get addicted easily. It's on me so I never try Any drugs. Smoking was addiction. I don't know how to deal with addiction in other people it's hard.

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It's all good ! thanks for taking the time to write the reply to me you're a thoughtful person.

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I wish you well mate, you have been through a lot

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Cheers buddy

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Hi Steve, well done with the not smoking, it is awful coughing up all that gunk but better out than in. You sound as if you have a few years left in you, probably more than me! I think you need to get back to the Drs and they will prescribe the best course of treatment for you. I don't know but it sounds like you have made enormous strides forward in your life, I wish I had your courage. I will say that you are pushing it a bit not getting treatment before now. Good luck

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That's right it's always always better out than in, when I think back and how long you used to take me to empty my lungs and I'm the type of person who will push out that extra repetition just to make sure, so with me not smoking for 6 months I really don't see no point in going to the doctor's since im getting better week by week but the truth of the matter is I never really got on with doctors, actually I did go to the doctor's a couple of years ago because I had a chest infection and I need an antibiotics I remember now as I'm talking to you or should I say talking to the mic now I don't need to excuse for grammar 'haha'. Thanks for the reply and your concerns

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Hi my fella countryman,

Well done on all those things you've accomplished!

I think you're so right about the music and theres now evidence to prove it. You instinctly knew without scientists telling.

I too stalk this site reading and occasionally post.

Keep up the great work. Taff ๐Ÿ˜

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Well done Welshsteveee - that must have taken a load of strength and courage.

What music does it for you?

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Hi Welshsteveee

Nothing better than Welsh singing and Welsh humour. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Well done on beating the demons.

Hate to disappoint but no one is perfect on this forum๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ

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I think you are amazing what you have achieved ๐Ÿ‘ and Welshsteveee no going in mosh pits lol, get the Ska on anyone whose body donโ€™t start tapping wellllll. I have been saying to myself I was going to do this everyday. But had flare up with my other conditions.

My daughter had some Reggae on then I saw this and now Iโ€™m listening to Madness at new year. As for dancing I canโ€™t dance how I used to with this music, last time I did to a local band who I might say are amaaaaazinnnggg 2Rude I wasnโ€™t able to move for over two weeks after. But gee it felt like I was so alive. You got me โ€˜ moving moving I like to move it move it๐ŸŽถ Lol

Enjoy your music ๐ŸŽถ it sure is a healer

Llissy from WelshWales

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Hi Welsh man, well done on being clean for two year and six months of smoke free!! Us Celts need to stick together, from a Scots woman!

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Hiya Welsh Steve! Thank you for your honest post and hope to hear more from you! Dancing is a good idea... I am saying that whilst sitting on the settee! Going swimming later tho.

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Brilliant achievement. Well done๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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No abuse from me mate, nothing but praise, I have mild COPD but my biggest challenge was living with an alcoholic brother, he will not to this day accept his addiction,has broken many friends and relatives in the process,recognizing your problem is one of the biggest steps you will ever make , congratulations once again, and oh by the way stay clear of the sheep LOL!!

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Thanks for the congrats and not abusing me. 'Yeh' ive come across my fair share of piss-heads out there, but to live with one and him being your brother,let's just say you've got my sympathies. The frustrating part about it is you probably can't even do anything about it,him being your brother and all.

It's ok for them,they keep covering their pain up,while you have to deal with it everyday. It's totally unfair (thats why iam still in regret mode) the pain and suffering ive put my love one's through. My heart and thoughs go out to you,cos it's a sad sad situation you guys are in.

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I wouldn't dream of giving you abuse because I think you deserve praise ๐Ÿ˜Š you've done 2 amazing things by giving up heroin and cigarettes and you're brave to own up to it to everyone ๐Ÿ˜Š I wish you luck for the future and maybe now you can actually look around you and admire and enjoy some of the beautiful welsh scenery ๐Ÿ™‚ xx

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Their were lovely words

THANKS

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Thanks for the nice kind words,'really' their really do make a difference.

SO NICE ONE

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Well done Steve, i too am a recovering addict and i was diagnosed 8 yrs ago now. Ive been drug free for almost 5 yrs now although i spent 5yrs before that on and off before it stuck. Dont dog yourself mate as some have said its not easy to stop any addiction but i know why you feel like that because i was the same at first. I used to think "what should i be proud of because its my fault i took drugs" the fact is youve stopped and as you know theres plenty of others who either dont want to or think that they couldnt stop so they dont even try. Give yourself credit where its due, your COPD has probably got as much to do with the drugs as the cigs so even better that you dont smoke too. Keep up the good work Steve!

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You've written such wise words to Steven simply because you know exactly what he has been going through. Well done to you too. It's a very tough road you've travelled and I'm glad your in a good place now. ๐Ÿ‘

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Andy that's the frist time ive written an article (post) since i could remember,it's got be at least two decades or more,cos that's how long i was on the shit for. But to be honest it was a spear of a moment thing when i started writing,but in the back of mind i was hoping to get a reply from someone like you,someone who has not only been though the mill but someone whose had the same repercussions and come out the other side. I must say with you writing those wise kind words to me is a total bonus. and makes it all worth while, so Cheers mate.

P.s 'obviously' hope to here from you again.

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Well done you! That's a fantastic achievement and well done for posting too after a year. Hope it's the first of many. You're so right about the music. I recently compiled a playlist of all my old and new favourites and it's given me so much pleasure.

Take care and all the best

Corin

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That's right music is boss, iam a soul-man at heart. But recently since ive started reading a lot more ive gotta say my new found taste is classical music. (Spotify helps mind) Maybe it's because it doesn't mess with my concentration while iam reading or writing. Now i know why those academics likes it so much!

Long live music and may it help you as much as it's helped me.......

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Thanks Steve

Wishing you all the best and keep posting to let us know how you're getting on

Corin

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Good on you ๐Ÿ˜˜

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Good on me? no good on you!

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Last time I looked none of us were perfect. Strunningly good news that you've been clean for 2 years and off the faggs too - nice.

Life is about making each other better and I'm sure you can help others do that (specially since you've been through plenty). Give it heaps!

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Thanks for the big-ups

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Congratulations Welshstevee. You have so much to be proud of. I gave up smoking thirty five years ago, and it was the most difficult thing I ever did and my proudest achievement. You have plenty to feel grateful for, and I hope, plenty to look forward to. Enjoy!

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Thanks for making me feel good

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Good on you glad youโ€™re over that, my son was brain damaged 2 years ago he was trying to sort his life out but the druggy wdnt let him, but ha ho heโ€™s on the mend come along way got a long way to go but heโ€™s eventually coming home, the druggy who done it isnโ€™t 26 years in a hell hole, itโ€™s done my health no good but Iโ€™m fighting on

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Hi welshsteveee you are doing amazing I have got COPD plus a few other things am also a great nanar (grandmar) just want to wish you all the very best x

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