Fear. Alone. Furture. Past

[Tricity125]

I have to. Say sorry. I have been under exterm pressure. And I was even thinking of committing a crime to end my partners. Suffering. It's been one thing after another. In my apptempt. To somehow leave. My. Relation ship as. She. Been a angel. And I wanted to get away. RelizinG. this would be my end I thought by miracle. That if I found someone else. In a similar position. That we could care for each other. And not be alone this I hate. I try to us n much as I can cos it's like at times. They. Suffering to when should be livin there lives. So. I looking back must seem. Very strange asking. Women if they alone and so so sorry for any stress . Sadly I did have some mental problem and now with my brain starved of o2. I get. Carried away my heart was in the right place as I am a carer by nature and would never see someone struggling like when people just turn the other way or cross the road like they do . With me even in the pissing down of rain or try to. Hassle me in cues. Beebing when trying to park well hear are Iam going on one. But. It is a very cruel world. And so are people and I though I leave. How not sure. But. My old Father use to all ways say. Two heads are better then. One. BW. Pj

[Ribbon36]

Please Tricity don't harm yourself or anyone else!!!! There are people here that you can talk to....we will try to help you think happier thoughts. Whatever is happening in your life is not worth committing a crime or hurting someone else or yourself if this is what you were saying and I did not misunderstand you....??

[Hidden]

Hi Tricity sorry your having rough time ... I don’t know what to say really with out sounding condescending BUT all your life sounds like you have gone through challenges AND given post AM sure as made you stronger.

We all have days AND even some of our meds can effect our mental state BUT is good your talking about it.

I don’t know if any quick fixes SO I usually have nap than wake up in better state.

Sorry your having time of it BUT must stay strong and not let things get to you.

[BSA-3 in reply to Hidden]

Nice one, JAS.

[Annie31]

Yes, two heads are better than one Tricity, your father was right! If you are feeling really desperate then ring The Samaritans lifeline so that you can talk about how you feel and I am sure they will try to help you!

[artemiss2291]

Please call out to someone you know. Ribbon36 is right...nothing is worth committing a crime. (if that is indeed what is going on in your mind). I am having trouble understanding you. I'm sorry about that. But, please, remember that you are not alone.

I have only been here 2 days, and I feel better. Please let the people who are here...help you. They all care.

[Ergendl]

You are in my thoughts and prayers, Pj. Sometimes we just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other and not think to much on regrets or tomorrows. Keep coming back to this site and telling us how you're doing - people are always around here to listen.

[sassy59]

Dear Tricity, I do understand your desperation I really do but please keep talking as everyone will be willing to listen.

Mental well-being is crucial but so overlooked and you do need some help. Please take the time to stop and think awhile. Finding someone else isn’t easy and loneliness is unbearable at times but not impossible to overcome.

Trust me when I say I understand, I have a son who struggles but he knows I’m here for him and I’m here for you too.

Take care xxx

[katieoxo60]

Don't be hasty we all have good and bad days, some worse than others. mental health issues do not resolve overnight it takes much longer than physical health to repair. Ongoing health issues are often harder to deal with for yourself and partners if you have one. Talk is one of the best ways to come through as you get other peoples ideas or ways to cope. Building self confidence can work wonders, gives you the guts to reject the taunters who beeb at you and hazzle you in queues. Keep taking care it is a very good character to have, but as the saying goes who cares for the carer when they are down. It takes alsorts to make a world and you should be proud of your contribution to life. Take care and I look forward to you speaking to us all again soon xx

[Rebecca6]

Tricity, I know how you feel as I have felt something similar. Talk, as Katie says. Talk to share the burden . I'd start with prayer, and then the Samaritans -those who know how to listen. My heart goes out to you and you will be in my prayers. God bless

[Hacienda]

Hi Tricity, Please read a post from patty-Ann. She has been there like most of us have. her post is new, I thought it may inspire you Hun. Love n Hugs. Carolina XXXXX

[Damon1864 Volunteer]

Please Rectify think about what you are doing, don't harm yourself or anyone else. Yes things can be stressful we all experience it at some point, but life is precious. Please house and chat to someone. Let us know how you are, keep in touch we can all give support. Love Bernadette 😳 xx

[Hidden]

Tricity are you saying you're thinking of leaving your partner or harming yourself because you feel you are a burden on her? Sorry if I have misunderstood. But if that is the case you must talk to her, you say she has been an angel. That says to me that she cares deeply for you and doesn't feel that you are stopping her living her life the way you say. When you love someone you are happy to care for them, in sickness and in health and that's probably how she feels. Being alone is no fun, as I know myself, so you are lucky to have someone to care for you. Sorry if I have not fully understood what you're saying but keep talking to us so we can help you get your thoughts straight. We all understand how hard it can be sometimes but we have to try and stay positive and keep going. Who knows what treatments and help are round the corner. I recently felt so bad myself but with different treatment feel so much better. It can happen! Sending you good thoughts, talk to your partner if you can or to us or ring the BLF helpline. X

[Tricity125 in reply to Hidden]

I have no one else but her. And I feel that her life is on hold . No I not thinking of hurting my self but. To Commit a offence and become the authorities. Problem.

[Hidden]

No that would not be the answer Tricity. Can you see your doctor to refer you to some help for how you're feeling mentally? I doubt you would get the help you want if you were in the system for committing a crime, it would be awful for you. Hopefully you are just having a bad day, we all have them and tomorrow will look brighter. The best thing you can do is to talk through your feelings on here or get some face to face support. You can get through this. I'm sure many of us feel alone but here is a safe place for you to say how you're feeling and know that others understand. The world can look dark but then the sun comes out! Thinking of you x

[Tricity125 in reply to Hidden]

I. Just cannot understand how we are so alone. And. Say. If she was not here for me then .? I cannot get my head around it. There's. No other help. What so ever. And. Iam lucky I only have this one illness. And apart from my lungs are really good but this. Constant breathlessness is a drain. I do my best just to accept it. I have. As I can not just. Sit or lay. When out of the home and trying to garage. Or cash point cafe. I. Do not feel safe here in inner London. It's to busy and. I do tend to stand out a bit. Well. Very late. And even though I will not be sleeping. Resting Will have to do. PJ

[Tricity125]

Thank you. I feel better. My. Woman talked to me. And we are in this together. Bless her.

[Symes in reply to Tricity125]

That’s great news PJ. Listen, sometimes I feel like I’m a burden to my wife. Sometimes she feels like she’s a burden to me. We keep on reminding each other that we’re not!

We talk. All the time. And we love each other very much. As it seems you and your good lady do. Your dad was right, 2 heads are better than 1. Keep strong my friend. And together, the 2 of you will get through this.

((Hugs))

[Hidden]

So glad to hear you're feeling better and that you talked to your partner. Hope you feel more reassured now x

[Tricity125]

Hi. Iam ok. And relize that from time to time things do seem bad. Or down and to have the ups which I try to do so a lot more. Well. Thank you all for responding. And. Bless you. I would never of harmed someone just. Created. Havoc and pleased I did not have to go that far PJ.

[Ribbon36]

Tricity.....I just read on here the other night from a post about new drugs that where becoming available. There were several I believe and they were geared toward those of us with more serious COPD!!! Please, keep in the back of your mind.....when all hope feels lost....something can change!! From what I read, I am inspired by the thought of the possibilities these new drugs might offer to me and my life or to others!!! Heck, even if it just helped to get us further along until something else new is discovered. This is the age of medical technology. Things will be advancing quickly in many directions. Have you seen the new 3D printers that can print (create) human organs!!! The best part is they can create organs with your own DNA so there is no chance of rejection due to it not being your own. Hang in there Tricity......there is always HOPE.....until there is no hope ....and then you will be in a better place (Heaven).....at least this is my way of thinking!!!!! Hope this helps!!!

ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articl...

[Tricity125]

Thank you. So very kind. And. We do live in a wonder age. Take care. PJ