Today was Meal and entertainment with Breatheasy. I Told Hospice yesterday I wasn't Going. Also District nurse Because my Anxiety. Is sky High. .Most of last night spent sitting on Bed Trying to Breathe. .This morning Frank was adamant that I was going He said you are not going Back to staying upstairs all the time Which is what I want to do now I've tried really hard to improve my situation But it feels futile when you are fighting for every Breathe and frozen to the spot One of the Senior nurses from Hospice phoned this morning to make sure I was going to Meal Did go But had to leave early District nurse coming and she also wanted me to go we had to leave early to be back for her visit .When we got home I physically couldn't move from stair lift again. and had full blown panic attack and the nebuliser decided not to work good job bought Battery one still have not got fluid from doctor all I have is 2 Days supply from the Hospital. The matron requested some before her leave Frank also. The hospital and 2District nurses. Today she is fuming Phoned surgery from here and she told them it is urgent so we will see what tomorrow Brings She also suggested that Doctor gives me anxiety pills whilst all this going on she took my sats and they are below the target range so she had to phone surgery to tell them out of hours Doctor may be coming out .Just had phone call from nurse aDoctor wants her to come Back and redo sats so just waiting for her to come Back she's Just gone sats just on target. So she coming Back tomorrow so it starts all over again and extra worry that we going to centre parcs. Next Friday why Did I Book it and will we Be able to go. Everything so hard .My Grandson just Been to see me I couldn't even go Downstairs. To see him he came up to Bedroom. Not how I want him to see me I'm not the nana he knows anymore .