Hi Damon. I hope your feeling a little bit brighter this morning.
I agree with Alan, I think you need to see your GP as soon as you can for help with your low mood. If this feeling is a one off, then that's different but, you do sound rock bottom and it will only get worse without help.
I've suffered with depression for over 30 years and my poor health has added anxiety to it.
I strive to be upbeat but, it's an uphill struggle with the occasional, slip back down the hill.
When my mood is lighter, I do think to myself, there are loads worse off than me and it does kind of, make me for grateful for being more fortunate, but, when I'm really down, even knowing that, is no consolation, and I know I need to see my gp.
Over the last few years, I have finally realised it is pointless, ever expecting anyone to understand what your going through, because, unless they have it too, you are wasting your breath. No pun intended. That goes for any debilitating illness.
Loved ones, can't see how we feel.
It hurts and frustrates us, because we can't do the things we used to do, but, they can't see that either.
Instead, we have to learn to be selfish and only use our energy, to do things to help keep ourselves well.
In the meantime,we're here fir you if you want to have a good old rant, at least you can get it off your chest. Take care xx