Well, I have been in denial for a bit now, since my diagnosis. I pretended to have a grip on this. I don't. I am terrified of what is going to happen in the next few yrs. As I have told my dear friend here...I'm not afraid of death, but I sure wanna' live!!!
I need someone to help me feel a bit better. I know I am not helping myself by staying in the bed like I am. I wake up with this doomed feeling...and butterflies in my tummy. I know I need to exercise...etc. However, I am not finding the energy right now. I'm just plain ole' miserable .I hate this feeling so much. I have clinical depression, and anxiety. That does not help huh?
I don't want to bring others down. I am aware that posts like this tend to do that, and I'm very sorry. We all feel down at times, and I can't seem to get out of this depression I'm in.
Hopefully, I will soon.
God bless us all,