Hi. I've been sick now for 9 years after having pneumonia. I never recovered. In January I caught it again with swine flu and nearly died. Since then my breathing is bad and I sometimes panic. I have to go for a ct scan tomorrow and I'm scared. I have to have an ambulance take me as I can now only walk a few steps before becoming so exhausted I can't stand up.
I have 2 children one who is only 14. I don't want to die yet but feel like I have got long. Part of me just doesn't even want to go for the ct scan as I'm dreading the news. My last x ray showed my lungs were scared very badly. I know I sound like I'm moaning but for 9 years now I've not been able to walk out of my house.
I'm just wondering If there is anyone out there who can relate to me? I feel very alone and scared at the moment.