I have missed talking to my family on here. I had, well still have a massive headache. My headache is lingering I think. Well I hope everyone has been doing good and has been in good spirits. I want to tell you about this site and what it means to me, I know it means the same for a lot of people. You begin to worry about other people because you know they are worrying about you. I can come here and talk and it feels like I am talking to family. This picture is my family when I was a little girl. I am the one at the further at the left. You all are a support system for me and I hope I am one with you. This is not a pity party just someone who is talking getting things out and talking to my support family.
I got a call yesterday and was told I needed a Lung function test. I haven't seen a doctor since my diagnoses. So this lady was going to set one up for me. I was going to have her make it the same week as my MRI for my brain. My husband started hitting the chair and I asked him what was wrong and he replied I told you only one appointment a week. So this next week is race week at Atlanta speedway. We normally don't leave the house because of all the traffic. So I told her to make it that week. She heard my husband and told me she would get me in when they could get me in. My husband has not talked to me about my cancer, how it makes me feel, nothing. There is no support here at home. I didn't allow him to pull me down with my cancer, but he did make me realize that I can't depend on him when it comes to cancer. Thank you for being part of my family and my support group. 
That is difficult for you. have you got someone else who can take you to appointments? You really need to get those tests done as soon as possible. The sooner treatment is started the better. Your husband is in denial at the moment. Once realises how serious your situation is, he may change his attitude.
Dear Azure, He knows how serious this is, I told him I would have treatment because I didn't want him to lose his house and he did not once say no I don't want you to do that. We will get through this. I did ask my best friend if she would stay with me when I was in the hospital and coming home she did tell me yes. I am thinking of depending on what happens to go spend the rest of my time with my grand kids. Do what is best for my mental heath...lol Have a wonderful day
If your husband is not supportive at this very difficult time, then being with your grandchildren, may well be the answer. As I said before, quality of life, is more important then putting yourself through unpleasant treatment, which is not going to cure you.
I am going to put my feelings out and then go from there, If I can't get the support I need at home, then I need to go where I know I am loved and supportive and there is nothing like granny I love you.