Feeling really scared and alone!

Just been diagnosed with a 13 x 6 mm non calcified pleural based nodule over the posterior aspect of the right lower lung lobe.Ive employed a top professor and today I was just crying all day.

Im 50 and I have never smoked but I guess growing up I was surrounded by smokers.

It just feels unreal that I could be looking at a cancer diagnosis,Ive had a lot of breathing problems like shortness of breath,but my CT in Dec 14 should no nodes or anything strange.(Just some mosaic like pattern when exhaling and small airway disease like asthma.

Ive given the doctor all my previous CT images and he said he will call me on Tuesday after they look at all the images....I hope someone with experience of this can reply.

God Bless everyone.

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  • Hi Mortalguy

    I am sorry you are having these very worrying struggles. You say 'I could be looking at a cancer diagnosis' but you could also be looking at a benign diagnosis. We automatically think the worst, that's natural but as hard as it is, please try not to get ahead of yourself. On Tuesday you will know what you are dealing with and I sincerely hope it is good news for you. Keep in touch and please let us know.

    cx

  • Thankyou so much for your kind reply.im an anxious person by nature anyway,always worrying.im finding it hard to cope right now to be honest,ive never been this scared in my life.I hope if it is bad news that i can just have it cut out asap.Im so nervous that i just keep vomiting,cant eat or sleep.thankyou again for your much needed kind words. John x

  • Hi, sorry you are going through an anxious time, there are so many things it could be. I know it's difficult but try to relax as much as possible, or at least until you get more information on Tuesday . I did have lung cancer & over 2 years ago; I had my right upper lobe removed, I am fine now. So you see, there is hope, even with a lung cancer diagnosis. Take care, Margaret x

  • Thankyou so much for your kind reply.im an anxious person by nature anyway,always worrying.im finding it hard to cope right now to be honest,ive never been this scared in my life.I hope if it is bad news that i can just have it cut out asap.Im so nervous that i just keep vomiting,cant eat or sleep.thankyou again for your much needed kind words. John x

  • Dear Mortalguy,

    I hope you get some good news soon. Could you be having anxiety attacks because they can lead to shortness of breath, I know it's not the easiest thing to do but when I have an attack I breath in slowly through my nose to the count of ten then breath slowly out of my mouth for another count of ten and this helps me to get my breathing more under control.

    Being sick and not being able to eat or drink might also be part of your anxiety over your illness. I started being sick or retching after my brother died and my doctor said for me it was a physical effect of my stress levels. The same with the eating and drinking still can't tolerate food and drink if I'm upset. Can't offer any useful advice other than works for me, keep hydrated (lots of little sips of water) small amounts of food that's quite bland so you tummy does not have to work to hard in digesting it.

    Take care.

    Sue

  • Thankyou you Sue for taking your time to help me,may god bless you.im in such a mental mess right now,im just a complete basket case,i dont know what to do but cry and then vomit and try to sleep which i cannot.im now looking at a guy that uses a new techniuque called EBUS they use an endoscopy like device but it can see your lungs and take biopsys at the same time.I want general sedation i think it will cost me a lot but i dont care,if it helps!.

  • Firstly, do not worry yourself, it will magnify everything out of proportion. We are here to give advice and support.

    I had that EBUS , night before I couldn't sleep thinking about it.

    The specialist and the nurse gave me a sedative, then a throat numbing spray whilst they put the endoscope down.

    i was so relaxed after the sedative, and lack of sleep, that I passed out, and woke up in recovery realising it was all over. No discomfort ,nada just a little woozy .

    So EBUS is nothing to worry about,

  • Same here. I worked myself up to a frenzy before but it was completely fine. Local sedation and came to in recovery. Suzy

  • Did you yours done privately or on NHS suzy?j x

  • Soz...should of put...NHS.

  • NHS. I was very worried and scared. I would have another if necessary. Suzy

  • Did you gets your privately or on NHS toerag(sorry seems funny to write that)toerag! Jx

  • I really want to be healthy and live!!!cannot stop crying and vomiting....

  • Please try to stay positive and wait for the results (I know it's easier said than done, but try not to look at the worst scenario). All very best of luck and please let us know how you get on x

  • Thankyou so much for your kind words.dedalus.big hugg xx

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