Hello Jay 1995
Thanks for the contact. I have to tell you that on reading your post my responses were
1. How sad. That must be so hard
2. Is this guy taking the piss?
Thinking on 1. as 2. Would be even sadder to contemplate. I wondered how to be helpful.
You probably know the gentle truth that only we can change ourselves, however there are people and places for us that can be supportive. Contacting this site has been an indication of your moving to make changes.
So a couple of little actions that may help.
If you can't immediately stop smoking make sure you only do it in open fresh air. You may notice the difference in what is going into your lungs and see what you are putting out into the atmosphere.
Cup your hands over your nose and open mouth and breathe in and smell the air you breathe out over you unclean teeth. You may feel why your body is not wanting food that has to go over that area before you swallow it. If you start cleaning your teeth your gums will bleed but keep going they do stop when they are healthy and you will be so pleased that your are no longer putting that into your stomach when you eat
This is a bit of a long winded reply and I hope helpful rather than off putting. You may find if you can make these little changes you will find the next help you need.
My very best wishes in your search for change