The trimmings are long gone, outside the sky is grey and gloomy except for a hint of blue creeping in from the north west. Bit like me I guess, but with grey taking the place of friendly blue.
For some weeks now I have been having problems with eating.
I want to eat but find that even thinking of food creates an uncomfortable feeling in the pit of my stomach and a strong urge to be sick.
I have tried eating little and often also those Complan type of drinks and meals even though they are absolutely disgusting.
Being father to six girls I was unfortunate to become familiar with Anorexia and now beginning to understand that the brain would allow you stand in front of a mirror and see an overweight person instead of skin and bones, now I was learning how the human brain really worked and I can't control its actions on my own body.
Perhaps my problem will go away, I know I have to do something, it's breaking my wife's heart thinking that she is losing me.
Lost a stone or so in weight but more than happy with that after original gains.
How do I learn to eat under these circumstance and at the same time just take sufficient nourishment to maintain a healthy body?