christmas and new year at this time of the year i must admit to being sad yet being happy. i dont think we can stop our minds thinking back, especially when you are alone, many happy memories, many regrets. i remember buying second hand bikes, for my three stepsons,sandpapering them down, having them resprayed, putting transfers on them, polishing the old chrome wheels until sparkling, had them looking brand new for christmas day, these lads were as happy as larry, buying the two stepdaughters new prams and dolls,a neighbour made cloths for the dolls, covers for the prams their face lighting up on christmas morning, usually around 2 30 am buying the wife a surprise coat i couldn't really afford,, that was many years ago now,, but hard to erase memories.
but looking back can be dangerous, upsetting etc. as i haven't seen any of these kids for many many years after a divorce they,ll all be well into their adulthood now, some will be grandparents
,, but since then god blessed me with a lovely daughter from a different mother fairly late in life, she is the light of my life. a lovely well humoured lass, she makes me laugh so much.
so today, i went on my scooter to nearby asdas, and for the first time in years, bought a small tree with lights, decorations, balloons, cards etc,, got a mate on the site where i live to put them up,,,why should i NOT enjoy christmas, because i will when my daughter comes up shell be surprised at the living room being so bright, me being so bright, then,, she will lighten it all the more , with just her presence i always go to my sisters for christmas dinner , shes a great kindhearted lass, along with my brother in law kenny, my old mother at 92 will be there,,, shes nearly blind, but enough sight to see, many grandkids, many great grandkids, and 4 great/great grandkids,,, yes i will enjoy christmas
p.s all just passing thoughts
... a merry christmas to all on this site, for without all of you, i very much doubt if i would have seen this christmas,, but with you,, i hope to see many more christmases to come,, love jimmy xxx