Struggling today sat in a carpark writing this and crying. Been a difficult 6weeks COPD diagnosis not being well on top of that a planned op for women problems and constant pain in chest or back which they say is reflux. Medication they gave me for reflux made me very ill so stop taking it but pain in chest and back is here again reckon silent reflux. So totally changed diet nothing red, no booze, processed food, fried food, chocolate, tea and coffee yet still feel crap, tired and emotional and pain doesn't ease up. Feel doctors not listening. And to top it all arguing with my husband he said christsake Tracey your only 40 have some fun relax he wanted me to have a class of wine but I darent I don't want to feel worse he was so annoyed I can hardly eat only positive being I'm losing weight but as Dr said I've a long way to go! I just feel hopeless it must be hard my my hubby I'm always tired falling asleep on the couch the future with me is bleak. Proper feeling sorry for myself just overwhelmed weak and pathetic. Get through today hopefully brighter tomorrow.